Im so scared

Hi,

It is difficult to cope once you have had a Cancer diagnosis and the waiting for results and a plan is an emotional rollercoaster. I was in such a state, I honestly thought I was on the edge of a breakdown, I was so anxious and nothing the Team said to me made me feel any better, I was so frightened, I never thought it would get easier either but it has although 18 months on I still get anxious about a recurrence.  Believe me, you will cope, somehow you just do, but at present you are waiting for results and treatment plan, once you have these you will begin to focus on getting through the treatment.  Its so mentally tough, I do hope you have someone to talk to and maybe a visit to your GP for something to help with anxiety could be an idea? 

Lets us know the plan after your appointment on Friday.

Best Wishes.

No need to apologise on here , wasn't really a big moan ! 

This feeling of fear ,anxiety is so hard ,we've all been there and honestly this is the worst time ..the waiting for results and your treatment plan .

It does get better ..obviously you still get anxious but you know what is happening on your plan and that lets you focus .

You will get thru this you are stronger than you think ! You will take control in small ways as you go along with your plan .

Take one day at a time Try not to look too far forward  . .I started this journey with a routine mammogram in June and like a lot of others I always know what day of my cycle of treatment I'm in ( day 8) anything else is written on calendar .

Try to relax Friday won't be long 

come back and rant when you want but no apologises .

margaret x

Thank you Margaret you're a star, it really helps to speak to women that have been there got the t shirt and read the book. Why do we all get these terrible thoughts in our heads al of the time. Xxx

Thank you for your kind words and as you say I'll get somehow, we have no choice so we. I have Diazepam only weak ones but by God do they knock me out so have only been taking them at night and they work brilliantly for a good nights sleep and it's the mornings I find hard when I wake up and realise it isnt a dream. 

Waiting for results was awful. You certainly shouldn’t apologise for struggling. I remember thinking my life was over at that stage. And then when my results came they were worse than I had hoped. BUT I GOT THROUGH, AND SO WILL YOU!

Once you have your treatment plan you will be able to see it in smaller bite sized chunks. You can do this. 

I also went to my GP and demanded some help. I had drugs to get me through the waiting stage. They may have made me a bit distant and ‘out of it’ but it was only for a couple of weeks and I needed them. GP was reluctant but I wasn’t taking no for an answer. 

You can cry and despair. You are entitled to. This is a very difficult time. You will get through whatever this unwelcome journey throws at you. You are not obliged to enjoy it. If it hurts, then cry. Give yourself permission. 

You can do this. Wishing you the very best of luck. xx

Cos we human and scared . It's normal!! To feel like that . The BC nurse was very concerned because I wasn't upset enough ! 

Told her I cope by being very logical and I'll get upset later thankyou .

If you need to talk to someone is there a local macmillan group that can offer you coffee and an ear tomorrow . Or ring one of the phone lines .

Or just rock up on here you can even have a laugh on the Awake site check it out 

Margaret x

Aww bless you Sandy for you encouraging words you don't know what they mean to me. Hope you're ok now and no doubt you'll be seeing me on here in the near future xxxx

Hi there 

As the others on the group have told you, the feelings you are experiencing are stressful but normal at this stage of your journey, I have suffered with anxiety for years, and when I was waiting for my treatment plan in April this year, I thought I was going to completely crack but do you know we are stronger than we think, when I think back I don’t know how I got through, but the strength comes from somewhere. You will get there and once you have your treatment plan , you will probably not be as anxious as you are now. I am nearly 5 months on since my mastectomy in June, still get anxious days and think about the future. So go with your feelings, don’t fight them. Will be glad for you when you have results, more info on Friday. Hold on in there, your strong and please don’t apologise for having a rant, moan or whatever we all have our moments and it’s good we can support each other

Rita 

Aww Rita you're so kind xxx

I totally understand where you are at. We all do. I didn’t believe it at first that I could make it thru to actually hear my treatment plan but I did. I had beta blockers from dr for anxiety and they really helped and no knocking me out so I had 3 a day. 

Be kind to yourself. 

I went for my results and they had to redo the biopsy so I had another 2 week wait then. That actually made me calmer. I had worked myself up and actually was no further on and had to wait again so think I developed the stance on I will deal with it when I hear it. 

Sending you hugs and strength. Xxx