Irrational thinking..

Hi Mrsfloofy

You get through one day at a time. Good days where everything is "normal" although you must expect a new "normal". There are other days when you put your keys in the recycle bin and try to hang a milk bottle on the key hook. That is of course if you've managed to uncurlyourself  from the dark corner you are rocking in.

I've just done the ride and I'm pulling in to platform. I've just sorted clothes out in case I get a phone call Monday to work supply somewhere. I'm 62,so on the day of the lumpectomy hubby and I decided to retire. 

This as you can see from my profile is my second lot of Breast Cancer. I always say to people they cut it out of my boob but it's still in my head.So irrational thoughts are to be expected. But we can't live a "What if life" My son did 11 tours of Afghanistan with the RAF. The first time I was beside myself. Then on the news I heard of a group of cyclists being killed in Wales. He's a cyclist, he could just as easily have been there.

So take a deep breath, have a word with yourself and keep going. It's probably arthritis!In your elbow I mean.

P.s The Awake thread is the place for irrational thoughts. People usually on there 24/7 IF they are not sat on the naughty chair.

Thank you for responding Silverberg.

Good to know what is happening and has happened to others.  Yes normally I am a kick butt kind of woman and right up to the date of surgery was in some kind of parallel universe.  ie this isnt real...

I suppose post surgery blues are normal!

I will keep in mind the nights thread as no doubt I willl find it in those wee small hours. On the plus side my dogs love it as they get to snuggle up at odd hours!

xx

Hi

Nope, you are certainly not on your own and you will definitely get through this. My biggest battle are my thoughts, it really helps me to remind myself that is all they are! Just thoughts. I totally get your thoughts about your toe and elbow!  I can find myself focussing on any slight ache or twitch It’s so not funny but it is too! It makes me laugh why I choose to focus on the negative rather than positive and then wonder why I feel grotty ! I now stamp on worry thoughts and focus on the facts.

I agree with past comments the Awake discussion is great !

be kind to yourself, take care of yourself and take it one day at a time and actively find more things that raise your smile

much love

You are most definitely not alone. Like you I am generally a positive glass half full person but there have been moments in the last couple of weeks in particular  where I have been rocking in a corner!!! I have had to have a strong word with myself. It doesn't help being off from work and having to develop a new routine which is constantly interrupted by hospital appointments. I am trying to find things to do that keep my mind occupied, my house is cleaner that it's ever been and I have taken a renewed interest in cooking!!! And when it all got  too much the Macmillan nurses have been good at calming my fears. Talking to others who have been through this also helps which is where these forums are so helpful. Xxxx

HockeyNut

Good to know. Not sure about house cleaning  

But it really is finding disraction. I really want to book a holiday for next May but find myself thinking "better not". Crazy I know . Just waiting for this Wednesday as I get my op results back.

Good knowing you are all here x

Hi all

Ahh! Distractions !

How to fill in the waiting ...worst is the first waiting process .. results and treatment plan once you’ve got these it’s easier your right hard to plan hols . 

Get a short break booked between app. Or before treatment. 

My op was July ..story on profile . Chemo now . Garden all changed by hubby under my instruction lol now indoors plumbers start next week

Me ? I’m busy filling freezer with Xmas baking in between chemo and nana naps . 

It really is a case of keeping as active as poss  and distracting for as long as pos. 

oops nearly forgot can come on here  and rant rave and laugh  

margsret x

, Hope everything goes well for you on Wednesday Please pop back and let us know.

Tina x

Thank you Israel. 

It is hard to find that balance isn't it?

x

I’m looking at holidays, I’m always looking though. Not booked anything. Last time I booked to go away, it took an age to get my 16 year old her first adult passport, she’d had 2 child ones, then after waiting nearly 2 months for it, Thomas Cook go bust! I don’t think I’m destined go away lol. 
T x x