Hi, I am new to the group and even though I haven’t had a definite diagnosis yet, I am struggling with the “waiting game”. I had had a pea size lump under my right arm for nine months and have had no problems with it until recently. I went to my GP in May who told me not to worry. I was given antibiotics and sent on my way.
I went back again last week as it started giant me grief and done pain. I gad noticed it was a little larger too. GP has referred me urgent to the Breast clinic so it’s all a bit waiting game now. I’m a single mother to a four year old and I’m struggling.
Im having panic attack’s, noticing every little twinge of pain in my body and crying every few hours.
I lost my mum to lung cancer three years ago so the thought of going through anything like she did is scaring me to death
Hi and welcome to the online community
Waiting for tests and then results is really hard so it's no wonder to hear that you're struggling, especially with your mum having had cancer. There are no easy answers other than to try and distract yourself and I guess with a four year old around you have plenty of distraction!
It's perfectly normal to worry that every twinge in your body means that you have cancer but in reality it's just that you're noticing these things more now than you did before because you're worried. Having panic attacks must be horrible especially with a little one around. Have you spoken to your GP about this as s/he should be able to help you?
Having an urgent referral means you should have an appointment with the breast clinic within 2 weeks of referral so hopefully you don't have too much longer to wait. In the meantime if you think of anything that you want to ask just pop back.
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Thank you for your reply.
i think Google is my worst enemy right now. Trying to figure out if it’s soft or hard and if it moves etc. I’ve no idea!! I thought I might have felt something in my breast but I can’t so I’m now thinking of lymphoma.
I can be my own worst enemy as I tend to think the worst but there’s a little bit of hope still left thinking “maybe it’s not cancer”. Trying to distract myself isn’t working too well at the moment so researching is all I can do.
Yes, I definitely advise you to stay away from Dr Google as it doesn't matter what symptoms you type in he'll always tell you that you have cancer. He's already scared you into thinking you have lymphoma and only a real doctor after tests will be able to tell you what, if anything, you do have!
However, if you want to research your symptoms then stay on reputable sites like this one, Cancer Research UK or the NHS.
I do understand your anxiety, having been diagnosed with melanoma, but here I am 3 years later getting on with my life, albeit staying out of the sun!
I know it's no good me saying don't worry, because we all do, but no amount of worrying or researching will make any difference to the results of your upcoming tests. Try to just concentrate on now and save the worrying for if they do find something and, even then, the majority of cancers can be treated these days.
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Hi Samanthamarie. Please try not to worry I know it’s hard we all have been through this it’s two years since my diagnosis and we have all come through it the waiting is the hard thing. I dont think it could be serious after 9 months because those lumps grow so fast and sounds like your young it’s probably a cyst, Good Luck let us know how you get on. Sending hugs.x
Thank you boobylou!
Ive been finding work is helping a little but I come home, see my little girl and completely break down. I’m constantly checking the lump and can see if when I shine my flashlight (on my phone) on it. Honestly don’t think that’s helping!!
I think I would feel more at ease if it hasn’t grown at all, which it has a little and I’ve noticed I’ve some pain at the side of my breast and down my arm a little (new symptom).
Just want my appointment to come through to get it over and one with and go from there. I’ve just booked a holiday to Florida for May and feel any plans for life are now on hold.
Fingers crossed it’s something harmless but my gut tells me it’s not. X
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