Holding it together - until tonight

Sorry i haven't seen this sooner, what a poopy thing to happen. 

Let's have a deep breath, you can do this and you will do this. No wonder you've got yourself in a state i'm sure most of us would. 

Hope the diazepam has helped, when you ring tomorrow tell them that you have taken it and explain to them why. If they know it is causing you so much anxiety hopefully they will get you in as soon as possible  tomorrow and not leave you waiting too long. Do you have someone going with you?

I found the waiting for my first FEC was so much worse than having it done. I remember leaving the hospital afterwards and thinking was that it!!! I will just say make sure you take the anti sickness meds they give you, even if you don't feel sick. My chemo nurse told me that prevention is so much easier than stopping it.

Big Hugs for you. 

If you have problems sleeping tonight have a look in the Awake group xx 

Let us know how you get on tomorrow, hopefully you'll be telling us you've had it done and you're doing ok xx

Hi daisy Jake sorry to hear what happened am sure you will feel better and more settled tomorrow the nurses in chemo unit will take good care of you and remember it is all doable  and take whatever helps you through it but make sure medical team approve take care all will be fine xx

Hi Daisy,

You poor thing, its horrible to feel so low. I don't know much, but I know there are probably lots of people on here who can sympathise completely. I'm a rookie but am sure that the tears you shed tonight will probably have been building for a while and to release them will probably help.

Not to spout flowery crap, but tomorrow is a new day, take a deep breath,  put on your best game face and keep going. I'm sure things will improve.

Be kind to yourself, this is hard but we are all here to support each other. Big hugs (unless you're sore, in which case, gentle arm strokes) TT xxx

daisyjake, 

Blimey, I completely feel for you, so hard waiting for first chemo as it is without all that.

I hope you managed some sleep and got some answers today, hopefully you are in today. 

I was a nervous wreck, I cried before I went to hospital and shook with nerves throughout first treatment, nurse was talking time the whole time, it was fear of the unknown, once first one is over, i was ok and it does get easier.

Hope SE’s are kind to you x

Well lovely people I FINALLY got my FEC at 1.30pm. Embarrassed to say that as my wonderful friend is a consultant in breast unit she kicked ass & moved it on as at 11am they were still faffing.

Total melt down on walking in to unit, full on faints & uncontrollable shakes. Once in chair, faint again but cannula ok, thank god for EMLA. Sensation of magic medicine odd rather than unpleasant and hand just a bit hurty.  Drove home & ate chocolate  

Two great guys in there, chatting and joking as they were having treatment, if I can get half way to their gumption I will be happy.

Slight shock at 7 days of sub cuts, thankfully my feisty mother stepped in “oh I can do those for you, I used to inject Marion’s diabetic cat” oh well, ideal

Daisy xx