Feeling nervous about gp appointment

Hi ajlmay and  a warm welcome to the group although we always hope that no one ever needs to come here. You have taken the first step in reaching out and we will be here for you all the way as you need us to be. We are a friendly bunch though and try to support each other as much as we can. 

I can totally understand why you are anxious about this as you have been in this situation before and any of us would feel the same in your situation, so you are not alone. You are doing the right thing though going to the GP and you are right in that they will possibly want you seen at the Breast Clinic.

You wouldn't be human if you didn't feel nervous and past history is taking you to the bad place but again any of would feel the same and as you say this could well turn out yet to be nothing to worry about. 

I wish I could say something to you to make any of this any better but you know the drill and tomorrow is the start of the process seeing the GP and getting expertly checked out. Will be thinking of you tomorrow and do please keep in touch and let us know how you get on as we will be thinking of you. I suspect that there may be a sleepless night ahead but hey tomorrow will be here before you know it.

Thinking of you and sending some huge big hugs your way for now. xxx.

I'm just reading your reply this morning.  Did have a restless night but I got some sleep.  Feeling nervous and can't quite believe I'm doing this again.  Trying hard not to think to far ahead.  Thanks for your kind words xx

Hi GRANNY59  Went to GP appointment and as expected he has put in an urgent referral because of my past history.  Have had great support from the friends I have confided in but I've felt really upset.  Now the difficult time - keeping myself busy and mind from going all sorts of places until I get my appointment.  Any suggestions?  Also how do I add a message to any of the discussions in this group.  I'm new to this technology.  xxx

Hi ajlmay at least the outcome was kind of expected but upsetting nonetheless. Ah the keeping busy stage well the best thing to do is keep so busy with different things that you don't have time to dwell on any of it and when you go to bed you are so tired that you have to sleep. My house was begging me by the end of the waiting period to leave it alone as it was cleaned to within an inch of its life. There isn't an easy answer unfortunately but its ok to feel upset and scream and shout at the unfairness of everything  as much as you like.

When you go to any of the posts there should be  a blue reply button and you just press that and start typing and then press send .

If you want to start a new conversation at the top of the main page there should be wording that says "start a new conversation" and you press on that put a title in the heading ,start typing, then press post and your post should come up.  its ok to have a practice we are not in the least formal on here and as I said we are here for you every step of the way so keep in touch and keep super busy. When that thought comes into your head get up and do something and hopefully it will go away.

Forgot to say that there is an awake thread in the Breast Cancer forum for the night owls so if you cant sleep and want to chat just go on there awake thread Just press the link I have included and it will take you straight there.

Take Care and keep in touch and sending some huge big hugs your way. xxxx   

Hi GRANNY59 - thanks for your reply.  Good idea about cleaning the house - mine is needing a major spring clean.  Thanks also for the tech help to - I had looked at the awake thread but wasn't sure how to put a message on to it.  I've also just spoken to one of the support team - everyone is so helpful.  I visited my local Maggie centre today - and I've got a note of when their relaxation classes are so I'm going to pop in there next week.  Trying hard to be as proactive as I can.  Thanks for the big hugs - just what I'm needing today xxx

Hi GRANNY59 - felt very peaceful last evening and had quite a good sleep until about half 5. Tried to get back to sleep and now I just feel I'm back to square one - think I've got myself a bit wound up.  It feels like groundhog day.  All these different emotions.  I've got a friend coming over later which I'm sure will help.  Sorry for this rant - just needed to do it xxx

Hi alijmay so sorry to hear you have or may not have to go through this again I have found this forum fab you can always rely on us for support and most of the time someone will be I same position as you it is all about keeping that mind busy and one day at a time I also go to Maggie's every week for Thai chi and exercise great place to chat meet people hav a cuppa you take care stay strong xx

Hi Kessy - thanks for lovely reply.  I'm already finding this forum really good.  I got my appointment in today for this coming Wednesday so I haven't got too long to wait.  Getting the letter made it all more real so I was a bit emotional when I read it.  Need to try to keep myself as busy as possible between now and then.  Thanks for your encouraging words.  xx

Had a bit of a restless night. First thing this morning has been really difficult. I've already been on to the helpline and spoken to a support person and a nurse.  Finding it really hard to focus on anything other than the dread of the appointment on Wednesday. Feel I need to give myself a good talking to because I'm getting fed up listening to myself.  Sorry for the moan xx

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Carolyn

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