Good Evening dear Fruit Loops...
A day and night of not doing anything other than lots and lots of procrastinating and... mind you this take me forever... doing an 'online food shop' - I have to include items for my lovely mum, when I phone and ask if there is anything in particular that she would like I get...
Mom: Well!!! Well, I don't want any potatoes, I don't want any cheese, errrr I don't want any parsnips - those last parsnips were terrible I wonder if you can take them back. Now I need some shampoo but I don't like their prices I'd rather have it from Poundland (Mum, I'm NOT going to Poundland) errr well I don't want any toilet paper.....
Me (with a deep breath) Mum... please just tell me what you do want arrrghh
Anyway dear Fruit Loops I am going to 'try' and head off to bed early and plan to have a good day tomorrow.
Before I go though, I have noticed LondonLass has not been around - do we know if Sal is okay or have I just missed her posting 
With this I will grab a handful of Sleep Fairy Dust.... 'Thank You' and wish you all a lovely and restful night and good nights sleep xxxx
Galligirl wanted to wish you all the best with your mammogram today. LP is VERY excited about going with you! Although he’s not been to an appointment at the hospital for a while so you might have to keep a tight hold of him to stop him wondering off!
Hopefully you’ll get your results soon and then you can hopefully ‘relax’ and get some sleep! Xxxx
Good morning....
Everyone is up early today!
Off to school perhaps? Or that early morning walk?
Another beautiful day but we might catch a storm here. It's already 20° ....
It is a bank holiday in France today.....
Tomorrow many of our restrictions are lifted and our cafes reopen. It will be a bit scary as people can travel anywhere and I look at pictures on UK tv of crowded beaches and beauty spots . In France 10, 000 less people have died and the new case numbers are very low but you do still wonder if it will start to travel again into places where it didn't get because the government confined us very strictly with very little movement that even continued after the déconfinement for the last three weeks. I hope it has been controlled sufficiently.
The real plus is that my son who also lives in France but in the Savoue, 750km from me, now has permission to visit if he wants and we are one step nearer getting my oldest son, marooned in India, home.
Hope everyone's tests, scans and treatments go well today.
Take care everyone. Continue to be safe.............It will be worth it if you do.......
Love Karen
Hi Fruit Loops......
I AM SORRY I’VE NOT BEEN ROUND MUCH AND THAT I’VE NOT BEEN A VERY SUPPORTIVE FRUIT LOOP! IN FACT I’VE BEEN A USELESS FRUIT LOOP! SO I HAVE PLACED MYSELF BACK ON THE.......
AND WILL REMAIN HERE FOR AS LONG AS YOU ALL FEEL NECESSARY!
Okay while I’m sitting here I may as well try and catch up a bit! Firstly and I am sorry to read that you are both back in Hotel NHS, I really hope you are being treated well and that you are back home soon. Meanwhile remember we are always here for you! (Well when we aren’t Missing in Action) Sorry!
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Thanks for thinking of me and giving me a shout out! Alternatively you could of given me a kick up the arse !
seaspirit44, Grogg and Northerner, Thanks for the PM’s! Again I apologise for not being around! Let’s face it Ihave know excuse, it’s not like I’ve been off out everyday playing tennis or golf or going Fishing! I’ve not been having 3 extra people round and Enjoying a BBQ!!!
Oh No sorry that’s just what the PM has said ‘others’ can do, while they are being paid 80% of their wages! While others are working long hours, looking after virus patients or working in the care setting or shops or delivery centres, keeping this country going!! It’s beyond belief, it really is!
seaspirit44 sorry to hear you’ve been having such a tough time my love, so pleased that all the Fruit Loops rallied round to support you. Bad days will always happen my friend, but I know you’ll be smiling again soon, because I know you and you won’t let this situation keep you down for long! ((((((((((BIG HUGS)))))))))
So anyway, I am still here and due my CT scan in a few weeks, in fact it was due mid May so a Month out! But that’s not too bad! Must admit I’m not looking forward to the trip to the hospital, in fact that worries me more than the CT itself or the results....okay the results worry me a little!
Reason for not being on?! You know what I don’t won’t to make up some random reason why I haven’t been on lately, because the truth is there isn’t really a good reason! I have come on here most days and read what you have all been up too. I’ve laughed at some of the funny quotes and pictures thanks to Northerner and and some others, well done Ladies and Gent!
BUT, and here’s the ‘Silly’ bit! I’ve sort of felt that you don’t need me anymore, that I have nothing to add! Well nothing of interest, nothing to add to the conversations. So I just haven’t been bothering to join in 
I feel awful for saying that! I don’t want any of you to think it’s anything you have said or done! It’s just me! Hence the reason I am back on the naughty chair, let’s face it I may as well get a season ticket!
What I have learnt from reading all the posts is that you Fruit Loops are continuing to be very supportive of each other and that makes me proud! There’s a group of you that remind me of how I felt when I first started this thread! There were a group of us then, that chatted day and night. The conversation flowed so easily and although anybody could join in at any point, there was a group of us who kept the thread ALIVE! You ladies have been doing that for the last few months, perhaps longer! It’s great, but also a bit tough to stand back and watch. To feel I’m on the outskirts of something that I used to be in the centre of.
But We have lost So many of our lovely Fruit Loops and each of those Ladies have left a mark on my heart. Especially since I’d met them Face to Face. I think once you meet, the names on the screen are no longer just names, they are Real people, Real Friends, friends that you can picture in your head, Friend that you text everyday, friends that you worry about on a whole new level! Sorry I’m not explaining this very well.
Each and every one of my Fruit Loops mean the world to me, all of you have a Special place in my heart. You are my Friends. I love to see you are doing well, I love hearing what you’ve been up too, I love laughing and joking around with you all, when I actually post!
But I also feel sad sometimes, sad that a Fruit Loop has passed away, or sad that another Fruit Loop has stopped posting and gone back to their life without Cancer, obviously I am Happy for them, but sad that I am still here, still in limbo, just sat waiting and watching as more Fruit Loops come and go! It’s hard sometimes! It’s hard loving something you have created, while also feeling you can’t give it the attention it deserves! Not because you don’t want to, because believe me I do! But because you don’t have the emotional energy to do it anymore but at the same time you don’t want to let go of something that means so much to you, something that has brought you so much joy.
I am sorry Fruit Loops, that’s a lot of Waffle and probably makes no sense what so ever! I’m still here for you all and I will try harder to get back in to posting more. But if I’m not posting it’s because I’m sat comfortably on the naughty seat keeping an eye from a distance! Still able to send LP when required 
Sending Lots of Love and Hugs to you all. Sal xxxx
p.s If you want/need me anytime please just tag me and I’ll be here. Or give me a text. More than happy to give my mobile number via PM to any that want it.
