I feel a fraud being here. But I don't know where I'm supposed to go. A lady I spoke to about my mammogram suggested it.
I don't have cancer and have been given an amazing gift of knowing I have the Brca2 mutation. I'm one of the lucky few that have the knowledge of being higher risk and being able to do something about it.
I've sat reading so many posts and know how lucky I am that if I have preventative surgeries I will never have to go through what so many people are dealing with every day. And some days I truly feel blessed. Other days just want to curl up in a ball and cry. Then worse still some days I just want to pretend it was all a mistake and forget it ever happened.
I recieved my result at the start of October and am due to have an MRI and mammogram in the new year. Everything will fall in to place from there I believe.
I haven't told my children yet. My two eldest boys are old enough to take the test if they wish. My younger two (girls) are both under eighteen. There's always a reason not to tell them! I
But if this is a gift, why does it feel like such a curse to put on them at such a young age?
Sorry I'm rambling. I know I'm wallowing in self pity and being totally ungrateful. I don't want to offend anyone so please feel free to delete this post if it does.
I suppose I'm just hoping by posting somewhere I can just get a grip of myself.
Thank you for allowing me to vent x
Hi and welcome to the online community
I'm sorry to read that you have recently discovered that you have the BRCA2 mutation. This must be an incredibly hard thing to come to terms with so it's no wonder that you're feeling as you are.
The community is divided up into different groups so I'm going to recommend that you join the BRCA positive group where you can ask questions, share experiences and get support from others with either BRCA1 or 2.
To join just click on the link I've created and then choose 'click to join' or 'join' (depending on the device you're using) on the page that opens. You can then introduce yourself and post questions in the same way as you did here and join in with existing conversations by clicking on 'reply'. To save you typing this out just copy and paste it into a new post there.
When you have a minute, it would be really useful if you could pop something about your journey so far into your profile as it really helps others when answering or looking for someone with a similar diagnosis. It also means that you don't have to keep repeating yourself. To do this click on your username and then select 'Profile'. You can amend it at any time and if you're not sure what to write you can take a look at mine by clicking on my username.
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