Is this normal?

So sorry that you are going through this.  I emailed my doctor's practice saying that I was experiencing post menopausal bleeding.  I didn't even visit the surgery they fast tracked me to a consultant.  Within 2 weeks I was in hospital having a hysteroscopy, then an MRI in a week.  I had a phone call to return to the hospital.  I went with my husband to see the consultant.  It was then I noticed the MacMillan nurse come into the room and then it hit me.  I was so shocked and couldn't speak.  All I heard was the word cancer and thought my world was over.  My advice would be take someone close with you just incase.  It was uterine cancer for me which she said was Stage 1a possibly 2, grade 1.  All of this meant nothing to me at the time.  My head was in a turmoil.  All I did was cry.  I just couldn't take in anything anyone was saying.  My husband had to take over.

I had a hysterectomy 2 weeks ago, about 2 months from when I first emailed my doctor's surgery.  I was in a mess before, during and after my surgery.  It has taken a long time for me to get my head around it all.  What help me more than anything else was the support from nurses on this website.  I choose to do online chat with them rather than trying to talk because I couldn't.  When you online chat you can save the conversation and they send you links to look at.  That helped me so much as I was able to read over their advice/answers at my pace.  Why don't you phone them or do an online chat?  They are so kind and reassuring.  I never felt I was asking a 'stupid' question.

It is very scary and trying not to rush ahead with things is very hard.  It must be even harder for you as you are poorly with long covid. There are no right or wrong ways of approaching this and your feelings are totally valid.  It is a shock and you need time to process the journey.  Do not do what I did and google the internet!  Stick to this website or NHS website for answers or information.  It you can't find an answer, then phone them (or online chat).  Also my doctor's practice has a dedicated cancer medical professional working parttime who I can phone at any time during their working hours.  Perhaps see if your surgery has the same system?

Take care and been kind to yourself.

Thank you Cazzie for your reply. This is really help for me to read a bit of your journey along with ways that I can manage this part, and moving forwards. I hope your recovery is going well and as you said to me you are being kind to yourself too. I began a phased return back to work this week, after surgery, which is keeping me busy and easing the crazy thoughts. Just need to get to Wednesday and be calm with the process. 

Wishing you all the best :) 

Hi ILove2Sing and a very warm welcome to the online community which I hope you'll find is both an informative and supportive place to be.