He was diagnosed with some rare form of pancreatic cancer last year which causes him to over produce insulin, that's how they found it.
It has spread. He has it in his liver and his stomach too now. Also his neck has tumours as well
He has had one form of chemo. They have him on another one but they cut the dosage because it gave him nosebleeds. The next one will make his hair go grey. The other chemo option they said will make his hair fall out and he won't do that one he says.
He is tired all the time, in a lot of pain. They give him oramorph and all sorts of things. But he is always in pain or asleep.
It's a really rare form of pancreatic cancer insulinoma? I'm probably not getting it all right here. I find it quite confusing to keep up.
Basically the doctor said last year that not matter what we do this will kill you. Time frame unknown. But since he spent 6 months out of a year on chemo and now he has even more tumours, so not looking good
My brother appears cool as a cucumber about all of this. Chemo all the time. Freezing his sperm so he could have kids maybe. And for that I am grateful, I've only seen him cry about it once. Doesn't mean he isn't upset of course. And his girlfriend who has stuck by him even tho he is going to die.
I don't ever show him but I am finding all of this very distressing. It's all I can think about. I'm sitting on a train. Writing this message now half crying. It's fucking my life up but this is bullshit my brother is the one with the illness
Hi and welcome to the online community
I'm very sorry to hear that your brother has been diagnosed with pancreatic cancer. It must be a very hard time for all the family.
Feeling how you do is perfectly normal when you have a loved one living with cancer and you might find this information from Macmillan on 'your feelings when someone has cancer' helpful as it gives you tips on how to cope.
As the community is divided up into groups I'm going to recommend that you join the Family and friends forum group (link) as it's a safe and supportive place to share your worries about your brother with others who have a family member or friend with cancer.
To join just click on the link I've created and then choose 'click to join' on the page that opens. You can then introduce yourself and post questions after selecting '+New' or '+' (depending on the type of device you're using) and join in with existing conversations by clicking on 'reply'.
Sending a virtual ((hug))
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