You don't have to struggle on you own. We have all been through this and continue to go through it. We are here for you. It's hard. It's very hard. I had a bad day on Friday, a good one yesterday and back at bad today. My thoughts are with you. Email me privately if you would like to talk more.
Charlieandlola the support here is great, so don't be afraid to vent your frustrations and anxieties, we've all been through them and are still going through them, unfortunately. I had grade two breast cancer, had a mastectomy and immediate reconstruction, now healing slowly and on the FEC chemo, this is my last one. Been sicky since I had it on Tuesday, but managing to eat today, thank goodness, but constipation won't go away, despite taking the pills I was given. Going onto T (Docataxel I think it is) next, yey! Hope I don't get as sick with this, but feeling down, worrying over hubby coming home when I can hardly look after myself, leave alone him. Mind you, the company will be nice again, seems so lonely here without him making lots of noise! Just burying my head in the sand regarding his outlook. I can't face it. Wanted to climb the loft ladder for the Xmas cards, got told via email not to by cousin, will wait till someone's here with me who can help before doing this anyway. Went to buy an Easylife step stool with rails on Amazon, saw it, then it disappeared, all stocks gone! I may be able to buy one from Easylife direct, but got to pay postage then and it sounds like it's a heavy step, even though only two steps and smallish. I believe it's better than climbing onto a chair all the time to get into the pantry though, especially now my legs feel weak and it's a climb to the chair seat with weak muscles. Got limited space to store, think it will fit behind the rubbish bin in the kitchen, suppose I ought to bite the bullet and buy it?
Take heart Lola, things will work out okay, I'm sure. Just keep on here and read all our posts for inspiration and hope.
Hello, sorry that you find yourself here... but now that you are, take a deep breath and know that everyone here understands how you are feeling.
Yes, it's really scary to hear that news and start to think about everything that might or is going to happen. This first part is the scariest whilst you wait for results, it feels like an age. Unfortunately, not much helps with the waiting but once things start to happen, they will move quickly and although it can still be a bit overwhelming, you will feel better about it, honest.
My hospital appointment on 22 July was to have some tests for a small lump I felt. 1 month later, 23 August, I was sat in my first chemo treatment. On 31 July, I was diagnosed grade 3BC ER+ PR+ HER2+ with lymph nodes involvement. The first thing I asked the surgeon was Am I going to die? He looked a bit taken aback and said No, it's treatable.. He said he understood that the word cancer must be a lot more scary on my side of the desk than his.....errr Yep!!. Once all my results were in, my plan was discussed. I went for MRI, CT & bone scans to check for no further spread, anxious yes, but great to get news back all clear.
This is how I keep my fear at bay - everyone involved in my treatment so far has been wonderful, caring and knowledgeable. When I met the oncologist, it was a case of you've got this, this is how we treat it. You see unfortunately......or maybe fortunately for us.......they have seen this so many times before and they know that this is what is needed to beat it. Guess that Cancer Research really is working and lives really are being saved. So in my case, it was chemo first and then surgery will be early Feb 2020, followed by continuing hormone therapy for some months after. It does feel at first like it is going to be a long journey, and it probably is, but once you get going, time really does fly. I have only 2 chemo sessions to go now, I have coped well with minimal side effects. Also, you quickly find yourself talking in medical jargon you never thought you would need to understand!!!!
I know lots of people who have beaten this and are now continuing with their lives, not just the lovely ladies on here who will give you all the support they can. You probably know people too. Stay positive and come on here whenever you need to rant a bit and hear from people who understand what you are going through and are in the same position. It does help. I am glad I found it.
