Having a bad day

Jenny, I hope you managed to get some sleep.  Have been thinking of you and your mum and dad.  Hope she is a bit better today.

Sending hugs and love to you all.  X

Thanks Elenium I slept but kept waking up at first listening for mum sounds but she's not there.

Hope she's a bit better today.I dread getting dad there. He's been a little in denial as it's all too much for him...it's very unfair. 

Mums face was all puffy. The smallest blood pressure cuff was needed as she's so thin.

I know you've all been here too.

Hug. 

Jx

Thinking of you today (and every day) with love and understanding thoughts. Xx

The dnr is a tricky/scary/slap in the face one but a clear indication of yr mums fighting spirit. ( i ssked the hospital to ask such ?s when i was there) she answered but with me there. X

Thinking of you all today too, I know even the journey to visit is a dreadful time and with your dad as well, totally beyond worry.

Trust your mum is recovering and responding to the meds. Stay positive, hard I know.

I think when DNr is mentioned it's the possibly the first time that "I might not make it" actually is realised, especially with all the treatments that are ongoing.

Big hug, safe journey hope your dad is okay!

X

Mum still shaking and breathing affected but improved a bit.

Jx

That's good news Jenny.  Hope she continues to improve.  Makes my worries seem unimportant.  Family playing up again...

Hello all. Inundated with work deadlines. Jenny, hope mum continues to improve however slight. Im an advocate of steroids (although not longterm). Mum v low and v weak, less interested in things. Not sure she really cares anout much as her body and brain now want to just sleep. She is slipping away slowly but significantly. Im not sure how to respond/react or even breathe when i think about it. Ive Christmas cards behind me but have zero interest myself. Will be thinking of you all and a special lady and her familys Christmas day this Sunday x

I dont know how to cope with rage and fury at my pathetic family. It appears they are doing all the normal Christmas things,as BC (before Cancer) but excluding mum, as usual and going about their lives normally. Im tryimg to get a plan on who is there and when. My sister no longer speaks to me after my huge challenge to her and is have her grand daughter so daughter can go out. Err what about NO as i want to spend time with my mother? Am I possessed? Am i mad? How can anything be normal. Brother says he cant commit and 'ive told mum' - so that makes it ok. She isnt going to be here much longer so why not commit. They are both single with simpler lives than me so technically more free and able to care for our mother. Ive now screamed at my brother, not seen my friends really for months and actually yes, im feeling a bit sorry for myself that im surrounded by selfish morons!!!!!! Sister now cant go to mums as she has a cold, brother far too busy with 'work' 7!days a week and the pub. I wont be talking to anyone by the time the funeral as all bar mums cousin have fallen extremely short on their duty with love. X

I'm seriously beginning to hate my family!

Selfish, selfish, selfish!

My brother is not coming to see mum over Christmas. He is just going to come on his usual day, which is Thursday. Arse!

Maisiemae I'm sorry about your mum. I do understand about having zero interest in Christmas. It's just crap, isn't it?

Jenny, I hope you're mum's improving.

Sue, I hope you're ok.

Hugs to all.