Sorry but I'm having a bad day and I just need to let it out. Â I woke up feeling like I've had no sleep and really down. Â Mum's been bad this week - a lot of pain and, I think, sliding into depression - so I'm in overdrive on worrying about her. Â My sister is with her today so I don't need to go round to see mum although I probably will drop round later. Â I thought I would throw myself into cleaning the house so make myself busy and then I'd start to feel better. Â My fatal mistake was asking my 18 year old daughter to help. Â She had a major strop. Â I tried to keep calm as I realise that she is worrying about my mum too but it was hard. Â I tried to talk to her but she just got worse and worse so I gave up. Â Then my husband made sarcastic comments about it all - again he is worrying and his mum is also not well - so I am still trying to keep a lid on it. Â But I feel even worse now. Â I'm now sitting on the sofa in my pyjama's watching old episodes of Grey's Anatomy without the will to do anything else. Â I just keep crying and feel so very very sad.Â
Hi Maisiemae. Got a weird disturbed sleep.Â
She was in bed on ward when I left. She was shaking a lot.
This time last year mum was in hospital too. Â I hate Christmas.Â
Mum will have BP check every hour through night so no sleep I guess.Â
Hope to have breakfast soon.
My body aches.
Jx
Hope brekkie and coffee helps. Ive never liked Christmas until last few years. We go to a beach on boxing day with the dogs and have turkey sandwiches and a cracker each with hat on whatever the weather. This year apart from partner and dogs but will be with my mummy. Oh we cant wish it over but how to ever unfeel this wretched feeling of almost horror and tears. Wishing you a day of hope and some rest for mum and at hospital you can be with her without doing everything. Hope pops is ok x
Ta Pops a bit poorly but a bacon sarnie may help.
Phoned ward. Mum vomited again but has since eaten and is having a wash.
NO COMMODE HERE Â (sorry mum)
Jx
Wish you continued improvement for all. My hubby was in hospital last Christmas and new year too, I know too well the long wait for a bed on the ward. He had the last bed before code black declared in the whole area.
Hate having to pretend I enjoy Christmas for his benefit, but there you go.
Rest well if you can, your mum is in safe hands. Doctors / the system can be rubbish I know.Â
X
Take a deep breath ... then on with the day.
Jenny, your mum's in the right place, which you already know. Â Hope you get some rest, whether it's sleep or just sitting down doing nothing for a bit.
My mum was in hospital at Christmas last year too. Â It's pants!
Got mum a small Christmas tree to put in her bedroom. Â Not that she wants it...
I have decided that as this will probably be our last Christmas together I'm going to make the most of it. Â We normally have all the family round on Christmas eve, Christmas day and Boxing day. Â Can't really do that this year (don't actually want to see most of them anyway!) but will do my best. Â
My upbeat mood may have something to do with the nurofens that I have taken for my banging headache but I'm going with it.
Hope everyone has a better day today.
Hugs to all. Â X
Elenium
Oh Jenny, that's just crap! Â I wish I could come and give you a big hug. Â I'm sending you lots of love and hugs.
Elenium
Hello Jenny,
I am so sorry to hear your Mum is so poorly. Such a worrying time for your family. Christmas is not my favourite time of year, rubbish things seem to happen. I really hope your Mum is able to be comfortable, and you get rest when you can.
Take care, Anneteresa
Hi all. Am reading posts when possible but exhausted at moment. Â You all know the hospital crisis scenario. Â Mum on ward was bad when I saw her antibiotics not working high temperature low BP and now catheterisation. They've switched antibiotics now but unsure of source of infection. She just said she's very uncomfortable.Â
Sis saw her at 5pm said she had transfusion and  nebuliser but talking more. Hope tomorrow better.
Her friends have messaged to say they are praying for at mass and also at the Hindu temple.
Her sister still not grasping things...
Mum was asked if she wanted to be resuscitated this shocked her she hasn't told me a nurse did...so I don't know officially. Â She hasn't signed the dnr form...she's not ready to.
Hugs to all...
V V tired. Taking dad to see her after dialysis tomorrow as he was ill today....and is distressed.
Jx
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