Having a bad day

Sorry for all typing errors but in phone and cant face detailed thumb typing checks. elenium do let us know how yr sister gets on. Off to shampoo bedroom carpet x

Both of us are on the verge of tears now.  It was just me earlier. My poor mummy.  There's nothing I can do to help and my bloody siblings are so crap.

I completely understand why you want to launch yourself at the cow (I want to use the other C word to describe her - hate that word but feel it is justified in this case) next door and pummel her.  I would feel the same.  You're not losing your sanity you are just overwhelmed with the bloody unfairness of it all and the crappiness of your siblings.  I wish I could come and give you a hug - we could sob in each others arms.

It's shit, shit, shitty, shit, shit!

Someone say shit?  (Stands to attention with gloves and spray bleach)....

Our situations with this cruel evil relentless disease are beyond belief.

Sorry your mum's uncomfortable and peeing. It's so utterly unfair.

Mum sad today wants to go on bike or to swimming again.

Wish was wealthy would build safe pool in back garden.

Today I'm trying sherry. ...

Ps carpet never going to recover. ..have shampooed it...chemo makes it very stubborn stain wise...

Jx

Maisiemae you can now relax about neighbour..have employed hit man.  He will park on her drive. Deliver a gloriously filled commode and smother her with a tenalady. 

Job done.

Oh what a glorious thought!! Yes yes yes. She hides behind holier than though facial expression . Which riles me more. She sang carols with us 4 days ago! Taken notices down from frint door and wall. Feel bit better now ive scrubbed zimmerwheel damage from mums carpet.... - no amount of Vanish would rid me of toxic biatch next door. Elenium - id happily sob with you and Jenny (and sue) as theres an invisible trust/bond. bless yr mum wanting to swim - coukd you hire a trailer and you take her out on her bike with mum in the trailer? X

Hi My Lovelies,

I'm sorry I've been quiet. I've been up at Alan's 2 days in a row, TRYING to locate paperwork, keys etc. His brother & his mate came with me yesterday so they could move heavy stuff.  After 2 hours yesterday & 3 today I feel like I'm losing the will to live up there!! It's SO sad that my lovely man, who could be a real arsehole sometimes, is reduced in my mind to the chaos in his home. I've collected some of his winter clothes that I can get to & will be taking them to the Winter night shelter near me. I've already taken half a dozen winter jackets that were here at mine. The churches in Coventry all host hot food & a bed one night a week on a rotation basis around the city for Coventry's homeless. If nothing else Alan's things are helping someone less fortunate than us. 

Oh Jennie, I LOVE the hitman!! Just remind him the Tenalady must be full!!

Maisiemae, I understand completely about the anger within you. I've been in the same situation. I've scared myself by how angry & enraged I feel inside! Normally I'm a fairly placid person, albeit one who can be silliness personified when I want to.! My adage is Act your shoe size not your age!! 

I've decided I'm not doing Christmas this year. I want to stay at home curled up with my kitties eating chocolate. My family all live in Canada, including my children & their kids. It was my oldest Granddaughter's 17th birthday on Friday, & I couldn't bring myself to even go in a card shop to buy her a card. I sent an e-card instead. Normally I love sending cards. I told my son I'll mail his 2 girls gifts after Christmas. It's clothing & may not fit by their birthdays.

I've received a few cards, but can't bring myself to put them up. I still have my condolence cards up, it's 3 weeks today since Alan died, & I've been close to tears all day. 

I wish I could Hug you All & help with some of the practical things. 

As to your less than helpful families, I'd happily throw a used Tenalady at them!! Straight in the mush, like a smelly lemon pie!!! 

Me & my kitties send Huggies & Headbomps to you

Sue xx

Good news!  My sister had her colonoscopy and they think it's IBS.  They've taken some biopsies but don't think it's anything to be concerned about.  She'll get the full results in a week or so.  They wouldn't be saying that if they thought it was anything sinister.  So we've all breathed a sigh of relief now, including mum. 

Hooray for Elenium's sister!

Elenium is your mum anaemic. ..if it gets very bad mum can't move much. She needed a couple of units last time.

Jx

Mum has had to have blood transfusions before so they do keep checking her blood and it's been ok for a while.  When she's awake she seems ok, not like she is normally if she needs a transfusion, so I don't think it's that. At least when she's sleeping she's not in pain, well you know what I mean.

She's fallen asleep mid sandwich, I've just noticed.

Mum does that too.  Pure fatigue then I guess. 

My sister has just angered me trying to calm down so don't affect parents. 

Nothing related to here just daft selfishness. ..and I'm tired. 

Mum ate a bit today.

Jx