Having a bad day

Hi Annteresa,

I have just accepted it now.  I've had to.  It was all causing me so much stress I ended up being signed off work for two weeks and only moved off the sofa to go and look after mum. I can't afford to use up my energy  wasting time worrying about what the others do or don't do. 

It's good that your dad is somewhere already that will make sure he gets good care.  Must be hard for you living so far away though?

I'm on my way to work now.  Feeling sick every time I think about it, but I don't know why. 

Absolutely freezing out this morning and there's no heating on my train.  :-(

Jennie

Hi still no notifications..had to go through unusual route to get here.

Mum perky today I have no idea why.

Jx

Sue, 

I like to suffer in silence... once I've  shared it with everyone of course.  :-)

I agree about the wonderful support network.  You lot have certainly kept me going.

Jenny, glad your mum's having a better day.

I spent the morning making phone calls to the palliative nurse, NHS and GP.  Sorted some things but still trying to sort out the rest. 

I feel like mum has got much worse over the weekend.  I spoke to her this morning and she sounded so down I wanted to cry.  

Hugs to everyone. X

Jenny,

Isn't it weird how we notice when our loved ones have a 'perky' day. As though the low days have become our 'normal'. I did that with Alan a lot.

I braved Aldi & Tesco today, though it did hit me a bit when "It'll be Lonely this Christmas" started playing in Tesco. 

Many moons ago I worked at Clinton Cards & one of my colleagues lost her husband unexpectedly 4 weeks before Christmas. She was coping ok, till one day we were both on the tills, and she realised the customer in front of her was singing along to the music in store. You guessed it, "It'll be Lonely this Christmas". Poor Carol just busy into tears & ran from the shop floor. The customer was mystified till I explained about Carol's hubby. Then he was mortified poor man. I then had to get the manager to come on the till as we were queued to the back of the shop, & explain between customers what had happened. When we got a lull, she went & checked on Carol. There were only the 3 of us in that day, so she sent Carol home & we managed between us. 

I suppose it's things like that which will become part of my new 'normal' for the foreseeable future. 

Hugs to all,

Sue xxx

Sue music does that for me at this stage too. Although only at supermarket. 

Elenium your poor Mum. Hope she has a good day v soon.

Mum now feeling pukey. 

We had odd pointless visit fro district nurse today. Not sure why she came was not sympathetic or helpful.  Mum said doesn't need her so she's only coming if we call her. Think we'll stick with  carers and hospice on phone.   Asked if mums injections can be done at home.  No.  

How's Maisiemae?

Jx

Good god, i feel like ive missed loads of episodes of Greys Anatomy. Mental weekend but realised 'girls' were quiet. Just logged in - paranoid i was hated by all including my sister! No notifications and ive missed all these posts. Too boss eyed to read but very skim mooched. Hello and love to You all, gang et al. So much to say as usual. highlights: sister stayed at mums for 2 nights!: mum dreamy happy with that which is lovely (albeit slightly annoying): brushed all the bed knots from my hair (sounds awful but i just xldnt be bothered and hair became pillow bushed, in A youth like way, it used to get like this after rampant youthful sex, sadly now tossing and turning trying to sleep!: im going to see mum thursday for the day then back at the weekend. Mum is so weak but Thursday night we have Carols outside her housr. I will sob and sing. Mum will be squeaking inwardly with love of the band and my proud singing (im Mariah Carey)!

X

Two arses now, yr bad bro and my bad bro. Fuckwits. X

Hi Elenium. My mum loves my dogs. Weve got two bearded collies. Maisie and Martha and think we will get 3rd after mum. Will call her Mabel. The dogs give me so much love. Grooming is a bit behind though. Mum held her 16 year old beloved poodle in her arms today while the vet put her down (dog, not my mum). As mum wanted it, lottie (dog) wasnt coping. X

Hello lovely Sue. You have huge integrity and a strong spirit. Pah!! To all of them. You rock!