Awake and up all night

Thanks.I hope so.These last few years have been so stressful.I’m looking forward to feeling settled again.x

It hard all the waiting .you will know were you stand on the 16th they should have you a plan ready .so you can go forward and fight this . just tKe one Day at a time .you can do this keep in touch someone is always here to talk to.sending hugs 

Hi again Willow, or Kate perchance? Anyway sweetie, your post did come through, albeit 16 hours later (!!) but hopefully sorted now despite your laptop's chaotic performance.

Well that's quite a sad and dramatic journey, going back several years, but I'm sure those here don't think you're fantasising, or lying, as it would be an extreme step to take. I know of a lady whom was accused of similar after living, and still is, many years after her original diagnosis. Many look to their own mortality when a family member or friend raises the dreaded C word, and promptly abandon them, unable to cope and hoping they don't succumb themselves. It happens, and OH and myself have experienced the same - we've reciprocated in kind.

You must be under medical care of some kind, and do you get any advice from them about your current condition? If so, push for answers or at least what steps can be taken to relieve you from the stress of spiralling. I saw your post to Helen, about the druggie invading your time; I can only suggest you get rid and get him out of your life, permanently, as he sounds like a massive drain. You could do with some sound advice to kickstart your life again, and in your position I'd definitely consider ringing the Macmillan helpline as they're trained to deal with situations not unlike yours.

The whole world doesn't hate you love - I don't for starters and just want to help a little, as I'm sure others here do, too, but I feel professional advice would be more beneficial. Maybe have a think how you'd like to go forward, but keep posting here, that's if your demonic laptop will allow it, and let us know if anything positive rears up. Sending hugs, hope and strength my lovely and wishing you better times xxx

Hello everyone, and welcome to all the new members . 
xx

Nature, animals and the natural work brings one you.

A lovely lunch and walk on a sunny winter's afternoon with family . The natural world in its splendor.

Hi Willow

I've only just seen your reply, obviously your lappy problems are delaying your posts.

Have you seen a Dr recently? Do you get checked? Treatments have changed massively in 20 years since your diagnosis.

Sorry to hear that some of your friends have abandoned you. 

Keep talking to us.

H 

Morning Alex  

That's a lovely photo, and you obviously escaped the worst of yesterday's weather. It was sunny all day here in West Yorkshire, but raining now.

It sounds like you had a wonderful day and I hope today brings the same. Big hugs to you xxx

There is no hope (latest from my druggie is that he has bought a priest's outfit - and he is SO PLAUIBLE, so 'heaven' help anyone whom he confronts)...my daughter (my only known living relative) is still completely blanking me ...... this is all so ridiculous .... but thank you for your support .... bye, folks, and good luck in your own lives .... xxx

Beautiful photo. x