My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

hi, senora
wow! what a fab time you had - Im sooooooooooooooooo glad you enjoyed it. Think it came at just the right time!
sue x

Hello everyone . Welcome back Helen and Gayle , dont worry H we kept up the chatter on this thread , there is a lot of chatter boxes so thats what makes this thread so friendly . Well i've had a better day at work , much calmer than last thurs and fri , still lots of tears when i sit and think to much but this time they stopped and i managed to carry on . My 2 sisters want me to go to Benidorm at the begining of oct for 5 days , i'm really tempted but is it to soon , i just keep thinking i know my husband would say go for it but what will others think . I'll miss my husband weather i'm sat here or sat in the sun , and i am desperate for a break . Love to here what you think girls ..

Lynne xxxxxxxxxxxx

Hi Lynne,

You definitely should go for it! Three ladies on their own won't make it feel so bad either as it won't be another couple you are with and there won't be many families because of the time of year. You definitely deserve a break. Like you say you will be sad here or at home so why not?

Gayle x

Lynne, GO!!!!!!!!!

posted too soon - meant to say, what does it matter what others think? I used to worry about that, but no more!!!!!LIFE IS TOO SHORT - GO FOR IT, GIRL!!!!!

Sue x

Hi, Lynne,

Like Gayle and Sue, have both also said, you should go for it.............The break will do you good........................

Love and (((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))
Quill xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Thanks girls i knew you'd help , there coming down to see me tommorow and we are going to talk about it then
Lynne xxxxxxxxxxxx

Hi All,
This afternoon we cremated Alex. So many friends turned up, from all parts of the country and I now know I did him proud, all his friends told me as they were leaving, with the toughest of them having tears in there eyes.
I have his ashes delivered tomorrow afternoon, then have the "task" of which places to scatter them. Alex had so many places he loved and wanted to be, forever.
I am still battling with the task that is the "in-laws". Alex's parents only spoke when they left the "wake" today, and his sister, whose husband Alex and myself fell out with whilst Alex was in the hospice, did not say a word to me. I had family from Alex's side I had never met that skimmed past me, a couple of them spoke, dont know quite how I feel about them as Alex never liked any of them, so I guess quite lucky I didnt have the contact, but his parents and sister I am disgusted at. Is this wrong?? I had the full support of my loving family and friends, from both mine and Alexs walks of life, perhaps Alex's family felt, put out, that I was involved in so much and with so many of them.
I thought today would be the time that I could finally let go, and grieve, but now with the hatred inside me for Alexs family, I still cant find the tears, or way to let go. I have always been tough, inside and out, but this makes me feel worse, so much worse, and im scared the only way I am going to get the release is to tell Alexs family my thoughts, and there pretty much the same as Alexs thoughts, as harsh as my words will sound.
I only hope that other people do not have to go through the family, well in-law, situation I have had to go through the last 13 days.
Claire xx

Hello everyone, hope you are all sort of doing ok.

I had a busy weekend driving, got Brad from my dads on Saturday then took him to Di's sisters on Sunday and didn't get back 'till late on Sunday. This Saturday I'm going down to Cornwall (on my own) as it would have been our 25th Anniversary in September and on the 20th August it will be three years since Di's Breast Cancer operation, so I have a lot to say to her. Also I had a tattoo done of a Lizard with pink scales on my left shoulder in honour of Di. That is the only tattoo I have and I quite like it but Di would have told me off for having it done, mad or what........ Stopping of in Devon too.

So I can just see her face when I turn up in my West Ham shirt (don't laugh Helen) and a Lizard tattoo, what the .... are doing like that!!!!!!

Hope you're all having some kind of fun.

Kev xx