My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Morning everyone. What a lovely weekend it has been so far and it looks good again this morning. The wedding reception was good. We had fun and the bride looked lovely. I stuck to just the one small baileys Sue so all is well. I have been feeling very stressed since I came back from Weymouth so I have tried to spend some time to myself in the past few days. It seems to have helped - I think I was doing too much and trying to please all of the folk all of the time. My parents are particularly attentive. It is lovely that they are and it is lovely that they worry and want to make sure I am okay but it gets a bit too much sometimes. They pinch a lot of my free time. I would never want to hurt them but I just decided to be honest on Friday and tell them I was really tired and needed some time on my own. They took it okay I think - I will know more when I see them today - and I feel a lot better for the bit of space.

Tricia - I hope your night shift went okay?

Sorry I missed you before your hols Kaz but hope you have a great time - speak to you when you get back.

Hope your making the most of the nice weather Lynn & Kev. Is Brad still away Kev? I think Helen is due back from her hols this weekend - I think she was only going for a week? Right I'm off to do a few things and continue in my effort to find the more relaxed me! Might even go on the Wii fit later! Take care. Ailsa xx

hi, Ailsa
I think that's the most positive i've heard you in a long time.
It's a fine line , isn't it' between trying to keep busy so you don't have too much time to sit and brood, and taking time just for yourself. Trying to please everyone all the time is impossible ; you end up being the comforter to everyone else, and if you're anything like me, it becomes too much after a while.
I'm sure that your parents understand; it must be hard for them to watch their daughter grieve, and I imagine that they're not sure what to do for the best.

keep on looking for those things that relax you and if you find something that works please let me know what it is!!!!!!!!!!!!
spek later
Sue x

Hi Everyone,
How you all doing this morning, i am just having a wee rest from housework, well our weather nice today again we have had a nice spell and makes you feel better. Well i think i have finally got all paperwork dealt with now after 8 months. This is when i find it hard a Sunday morning and on my own. Hope you all have a good day and i will speak again soon better get on with housework.
Take Care
Fiona xxxxxxxxx