My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Thank you for the birthday wishes.  My silly internet went down last night as I was trying to post.  So at work this morning and taking some time to say thank you.  It really means alot.  It was a good weekend, a friend and I went to Buffalo New York and spent Saturday night there, shopped until our feet hurt and had some nice meals there.  I did all the driving which is a first for me.    It was really good to get away, last week was not very nice.

My good friend lost her daughter to this horrible disease last week.  She was 40 with two small children.  P, my friend had lost her son to a heart attack 20 years ago at age 18 so now she has lost both of her children.  It was so sad.  I took Thursday off work to attend the funeral and would not have been able to go back to work after. 

But the weekend was great, I felt so loved with all the bday wishes on FB and from work.  Only 4 more days of school, I am choosing to work on Friday alone and I am done!  It will be nice to have a little time off before driving to Gaspe.

Happy Birthday Ailsa, have a wonderful day!  Patricia, sending lots of angel hugs for you.

love Bren

i know that in the overall scheme of things it may not seem very much, but my little cat Charlie was run over this morning and the vet couldn't save him.

It brings it all back.

xx

Oh Sue, so sorry   (((((hugs))))) My cat and dog mean a lot to me.

love Bren

Dear Sue, (((((hugs)))))) for you at this terribly sad time. Your little cat was very precious to you and therefore to us and I am sure the others will agree when I say that this is now your turn to get into the middle of the penguin huddle x x x

Ailsa, I hope your birthday has been  wonderful.

Bren, glad to hear your birhtday was good too. I hope you enjoy the summer vacation.

Rosemary, please do not worry about me, I am fine. Just having a bit of an 'off' time that is all. It will pass.  I am just too emotional for my own good.

Take care everyone and have the best evening you can. I hope tomorrow and the next few days are kind to you.

Love and angel hugs x x x Patricia x x x

Morning.  Sue I am so sorry to hear about your little cat.  Sending you some (((hugs))).

Bren I am glad you had a good weekend and very well done on the driving.  That is very sad news about your friend losing her daughter to cancer.  The funeral must have been very difficult.  I am thinking of you both.

The weather has broken here so I hope everyone is feeling a little more comfortable this morning.  The good weather is great but it makes it a bit difficult to work in - fine for holidaying in.  Take care everyone.  Ailsa xxx

Oh Sue in the overall scheme of things they mean a lot to us all, sending you very big hugs and putting you firmly in the middle of the huddle  xxxxxxxx

Thank you, my friends.

xx

Just thought I would pop on and say hello and join in the group hug.

I'm glad you had a lovely birthday Bren and Ailsa, Bren the funeral must have been very hard and Ailsa I hope the funeral isn't too far away as it must be such a very terrible time for them.

Lynne, thinking of you this week (I hope you didn't have anything to do with that fire ;)!!).  Sending you lots of hugs.

We are doing okay here this week.  The schools stop and then we go on holiday in 2 weeks time.  The boys are very excited about the holidays and all the summer clubs I have booked them into over the next 7 weeks. 

Sue I am so sorry to hear about your cat.  I know I would be devasted if something happened to my pets as they are my company at night.  My kitten is a very strange cat (i think because she is siamese) but is great company if nothing short of a drama queen.  I'm worried about Billie dog again though as she is off her food.  Being a typical lab she has never been like this before.  I am going to give her another week before phoning the vet as she does eventually eat her breakfast rather than scoffing it all down as soon as it hits the ground.

Anyway lots of love and hugs.

Gayle xxx

Hope everyone is having a good day and enjoying the summer weather.

Just been to see dad and he looks so ill. He has just come home from hospital but I think they sent him home too soon. He looks so unwell. He has had a massive weight loss, shortness of breath, looks so frail and vulnerable. It is breaking my heart and reminds me so much of when Ray was ill. I am scared that I am going to lose dad very soon. Can't stop crying no matter how I try. Even seeing my beautiful Kanon is not softening the blow of this illness.  Also, I feel so guilty because my elder sister does not know dad is ill. She is away on a much needed holiday so we (mainly I) decided it was best not to contact her unless absolutely necessary. She will be so mad with me but I am hoping he picks up over the next week.  Strangely I am feeling a little calmer after writing this down. Must be 'penguin power' working it's magic.

Love and angel hugs x x x Patricia x x x

Patricia - big, big hug for you.  I am so sorry to hear about your father, and yes completely understand that you thought it best for your sister to have her holiday.  I am glad that writing it down maybe let a little of the anxiety 'out'.  Penguin power indeed.

I was in Amsterdam with a couple of girlfriends for a five day break - I have not laughed so much for literally years, a good feeling. I realise that I must have sounded very down the other day ... but know that you guys understand, thanks x x x x x  Feeling much better now, just find it bizarre that I am such a 'tough cookie' these days when I used to be such a softie!!!

Lynne, my phone was worse than useless abroad so I couldn't text you, but was thinking about you. ((( ))) . 

Sue, I hope that you are ok, I know exactly how much my daft guys mean to me, so want to just give you a big, big squeeze. 

Ailsa, I love the fact that you are 'mummy' to a penguin - what a lucky penguin!!

To everyone else, hope you are all doing the best you can (specially you, munchkin - TEXT ME when you are nexxt up in Aberdeen) sending much love.

Judi xxxxx