My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Wanna make something of it???? xx

Never Sue , i know when i'm beaten xx

Well you ladies have managed to make me laugh with your penguin antics. I hope the poor thing manages to find it's way home safely.

Ailsa, love and angel hugs to little Owen's family. I hope they manage to get the person who did it.

Difficult weekend for most I guess. Gayle your boys sound fabulous and so sensitive to their mummy's needs xx

My daughter is struggling with her grief at the moment. We have been organising the things she needs for her graduation and she (half joking) suggested having her photo taken with a picture of her dad on the day. It is breaking my heart to see her so distraught. Yet another special day where he will be missing from the pictures.

We went for a spa day yesterday and there was a compilation tape playing in the bar at lunch time. One of the songs was 'Oh Carol' and on the way home in the car the same song was playing. J was amazed at this and even more so when I said it was one of the songs her dad liked to sing to a friend of ours. Did it signify anything? I am not sure, but maybe it was to let us know he was here for her. Who knows. Anyway, things are a bit emotional right now but trying to keep them in check.

Fingers crossed that my dad gets a satisfactory outcome from his hospital visit on Friday.  The dietician made a domicilliary visit today and has made some suggestions for his nutrition. She has also requested somne nutritional supplements to try to build him up a bit.

Take care all of you and have the best day you can tomorrow.

Love and angel hugs x x x Patricia x x x

Hi Patricia - as the presenter said on TV this morning they are waiting for someone to 'p...p...p...pick up the penguin' to return him to his homeland....... xxxx

PS - am sending comforting (((((((((hugs)))))))))) for you and J xxxxx

Aww thanks Dot. I know it must have been a difficult weekend for you too ((((hugs)))))).

New Zealand reports said that it was too difficult at this time of year to try to return the penguin to antarctic and that he may carry infection back to the rest of the colony. Poor thing

LOve and angel hugs x x x Patricia x x x

Evening everyone.  Gayle - just how lovely are Jamie & Ewan!  What lovely little boys you are bringing up - be very proud.

Patricia lots of love to you & J.  This is a difficult time for you both.

I have had a nice giggle at your antics on here tonight as well.  Thanks for putting a smile on my face.  I love the picture.  It's a shame the little penguin isn't likely to get home for a while at least though - we should adopt him :)

I told Suzanne you all sent condolences for the lose of Owen.  Things have been tough for them this week with so much media hype.  They have been shocked by how far & wide the story spread.  I wish I could help more but it looks like I am going to be able to do some extra copies of precious photos for them and maybe help by sorting out some music for them as well.  It doesn't seem like much but they have lots of family & friends wanting to do what they can.

Well I think I am up a bit late on a school night again so I should get off to bed.  Take care everyone.  Ailsa xxx

Oh so much to catch up on!  I haven't managed to get on Mac since last week, firstly Ailsa I want to send hugs to you, Stu and Suzanne and of course love to little Owens family too, it must be a living nightmare for them all and the shock must be overwhelming at the moment.

Gayle well done on getting through the weekend and also the 21st, what brilliant boys you have, they are your living memories of Wully for sure and will do you both proud time after time xxxxx Also well done for your restraint on Facebook, some people are amazing aren;t they - almost like they want the attention (and then get it wrong anyway!). 

Sending hugs and love to you all, all the dads and Alan too, I so wish there was some way of making things better for everyone, but at least our little community here does help a bit xxxxxxx

So long since I have posted, and almost feel I don't have 'the right' anymore as I have most definitely been an 'absent friend' for quite a while, but know that you guys won't judge me and I don't really know where else to let out such feelings.  So I will apologise now to you 'newer' penguins who are dealing with so much.  To my 'old friends' - much love.

What i find hard, selfishly, is that although I nowadays cope so well, have a terrific job, a wonderful house and strength inside I never knew I would possess.  All the time feeling totally 'safe' in my life because, bl**dy hell if I can carry on after losing him, then I can do anything. But although I am grateful for arriving at this state of play, as it is easier than the first year and the second year ...... it will never, ever match the state of feeling safe because Ed was here to be my protector, rather than me doing it for myself.

There are times I don't know how to deal with the concept of being glad that I am now so strong that nothing can ever really hurt me again ......... against the idea of thinking that is the saddest realisation ever.

J x

Judi you will always have the right to post on here . None of us post as much as we did , is that a good thing ? Does it mean we don't need it as much ? , i know i will always need my penguin friends how ever much time passes . Thank you for posting but it has made me cry (nothing new there then ) . I'm buildidng up to the anniversary on friday and dad seems to be sinking into himself . Such a  tough time at the moment but i know as always i'll come out the other side .

Take my lovely friends

Lynne xxxx