My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Alfie, welcome to the thread but sorry you find yourself in a position to need it.

The 'penguins' who post on here are all good and kind people who often put other's needs before their own. I hope you will find it a good place to come. This terrible journey you are on is not a happy one but hopefully we can help to make it a little more bearable. How are you coping with all the paperwork which has come your way? I remember it being like a minefield of confusion and taking forever to get everything sorted.  Take care, cry when you need to, laugh when you can. remember that it is early days yet. Talk about your dear wife as often as you can. Talk to her as well. It does help. It is 14 and a half months since my husband passed and I am still lost without him. You may find that family gathering, birthdays etc make the hurt even more acute and raw. This is only natural. Just talk to us on here and you will gain lots of love, support and empathy.

Love and angel hugs x x x Patricia x x x

Just a very sneaky one as I am at my desk - last night for the first time I experienced the horrors of a long post going 'missing' - I now know exactly how frustrating it can be. 

Will be back later but just wanted to say hello to everyone, especially Alfie.  And if you don't feel like writing yet, that's ok - just keep reading with us.  One day at a time, at your own pace.

Judi xx

GET BACK TO WORK, WOMAN!!

Back again ......... just to say that you meet my highest criteria Sue!!  Judi x

Hi girls-sorry to bust in on your thread. Cant remember who was going from here but just to let you I know I saw John Edwards last night in Cardiff. He was amazing and the friend I went with got the first message from him!!!!! It was totally mindblowing and the evidence he relayed and the people passed he brought through was unquestionable.  Im sure you will enjoy your show and wish I was coming with you. x

dear y and Y

please don't apologise for contributing to our thread - you are more than welcome to join us at any time.

so glad that you enjoyed your evening - I'm sure that the other girls will be along later with their comments!

Sue xx

Just a quickie as I need to go and find a quiet corner for a meltdown (sorry that sounds a bit dramatic doesn't it?)  Just got back from taking Sam for her colonoscopy and all is, thankfully, well with no nasties lurking, although it could be diverticulitis so we will have to find ways to manage that for her but at least she can stop worrying that she has the same as her dad.  Having seen the consultant two weeks ago in the same consulting room as we saw Steve's consultant on the fateful day, would you believe Sam was put into the same room today that I left Steve in when he had his colonoscopy?  Managed to get through and Sam was unaware of just how my mind was whirling (just as welll they didn't take MY blood pressure!), so having got home, cooked pizza and spoken to the inlaws etc I plan to shut myself in the bathroom for half an hour or so and give in - it's got a nice view from there.  Take care all and hope you are all ok xxxxxxxxx

I'll bring the baileys Rosemary hun , get the fire going xxxx

Yin and Yang lovely to see you here. Glad you enjoyed your evening.

Judes, naughty you skiving off work. Sue was trying to keep you in check but I think you ignored her lol.

Rosemary I hope you are feeling a little better now. That must have been so difficult for you today. ((((hugs))))

Hope everyone else is doing ok.

Love and angel hugs x x x Patricia x x x

Well, it's official - I have osteoarthritis, and it may be rheumatoid - have to go back for ultrasound scans to make sure. Have had blood tests and x rays, and steroid injections in the base of each thumb.

The best bit was that the consultant told me not to go back to work until Thursday. i can live with that.

sue xx