My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Dottee, (((((big squidgy hugs)))))) to you and Alan.  I hope the weather picks up soon to make things a little easier for going out.

Lynne, lucky you being nice and warm whilst Britain seems to have returned to 'colder' times. Have a fab time.

Ailsa, so glad you have made it to your destination. I do hope that I did not distract you too much.

Gayle, you do such a lot of travelling you must be worn out. Make sure to rest and recharge your batteries if you can.

Hope everyone is doing ok. Anyone need to be guided to the centre of the huddle??

Love and angel hugs x x x Patricia x x x

Hello Everyone

Just dropping in to say hello and welcome to Lynne G - sorry that you have had to join us (((hugs))) xx

It's 7 months for me today, and I have gone into meltdown mode a bit... Haven't slept for the last few nights again and struggling to stop the tears. Got a busy week at worl though so just got to keep plodding on.

Hope you are all doing ok.

Much love, Manda xx

Amanda, sorry you are having a difficult time. ((((((angel hugs)))))).  Get yourself into the middle of this huddle you need a bit of TLC.    Be kind to yourself. Take care hun.

Love and angel hugs x x x Patricia x x x

 Evening All, Lucky you Lynne having hot sunny weather as been nice here today but still very cold, been out a walk tonight with a friend so a bit better tonight. Gayle hope you are ok in your wee flat you have a lot of driving to do. Hi Lynne G sorry to hear about your husband but i can only say what everybody else is saying keep posting on here as i have been posting for over a year now and don't know where i would have been without this site and all the lovely friends i have made. Ailsa glad you got to Becky's ok. Dottee sending you and Alan big hugs you are so strong. Well i have just picked a new addition to my family a lovely ginger kitten but it's just a week old so another five weeks before i can get him, i did say i would never have another as it was a heart break when i had to get Scooby put to sleep but i do miss a cat in the house and it is good company, maybe i will not be saying that when he is climbing the curtains etc. Hope everyone else doing ok tonight sending huhs to you all. fiona xxxxxxxxxx 

Hi Amanda, Our posts must have crossed sending you Hugs Fiona xxxxxxxx

aww Fiona, how lovely. A new little kitten. What will you call him I wonder??

Love and angel hugs x x x Patricia x x x

Hello Manda, sending hugs your way xx  I was just saying to my mum, I will be glad when this first year is over with, I am hating all the 'this time last year' stuff. Already dreading the coming months, so many firsts... holidays away with Rachel and Dave, all our close family birthdays and of course the start of his illness. I know it won't be over for me when the year mark has been and gone but at least I should be able to stop torturing myself.

I keep trying to remind myself that Colin was quite easy about death and would always say, when you are dead you are dead and that is it, he never worried about it and always considered himself lucky to have had a good family life and knew he was much loved by everyone. I remember telling him that Keith Floyd had died, Colin was in hospital at the time, I thought it was sad, he was a chef we both loved watching, Colin just said "why be sad" he enjoyed his life and did everything he wanted to.

Thank goodness we have friends on here who care and support us, through good times and bad. I felt sad and down earlier but thanks to one of my friends on here, I am OK now.  :-)

Maybe after the year mark, we will stop counting the months, just like we stopped counting the weeks. Manda you know where I am if you want to chat. xx

Lesley  x Sending sleepy thoughts to you!

Ahhh Fiona

You succumbed!  I love ginger cats!

Have you thought of a name yet? You will have to kitten proof your home. I hope yours does not hide under the cooker like my Catface did for days on end. He does not leave me alone now, drives me crazy!

xx

Ah Fiona, although I am obviously a confirmed dog lover I am so happy that you have found your new kitten - fair enough Joey and I don't really 'get' them (Kat obviously has an affinity, maybe just down to the name!) but think of all the mischief that will make you smile .... even when you don't really feel like smiling.

Lynne - so glad you got there and are enjoying the beer sunshine.  It was snowing for a few minutes as I walked home at lunchtime!  I think it might be Gayle's fault, last week she was saying how cold she found it up here (it was positively balmy!) - the snow came just to say "You call that cold for May, wait to see what we can do to the temperatures here".

Well, Boy and I should be flying British Airways on 4th June .... the one day they aren't planning to strike ....... but apparently they can't guarantee that our flight will go ahead because the plane might not be in the right place to start with!  So .... do we book train tickets to London now just in case, do we think about drivin....... Judes what on earth are you suggesting ........ you know full well you would never actually manage to join the Motorway so that idea is out.  Ah well, I will leave it a week or so before I start to panic.  What with volcanos, strikes, rioting Greeks, politicians being unable to decide who they want to be 'friends' with ... I think the whole world is going mad. 

Hugs Manda, well done for getting through yet another 'date'.  And yes Lesley, I would say that probably after the first year of constant 'anniversaries' there maybe aren't so many calendar pre-ordained spikes of hurt to wait for, more gentle waves of sadness,  so I guess that is better.  (((( ))).

Ailsa, get you, phoning in your posts - Does that qualify as "Phone a friend"?

Dottee - I have my fingers crossed for some of Lynne's sunshine to come yoru way, I would like to think of Alan being able to escape the building site for a bit of fishing.  Cos I bet that if you think he is having it a little less stressed they you are able to relax a bit more too.  Love to all - Judi xxx