My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Gayle, John Edwards is in glasgow on  12th sept. and Edinburgh on  9 th September if this is any good to you x x

Hi everyone

Dottee, I hope that you are not too bruised and battered - and Ellie dog was just trying to make you feel better with her kisses! Very gentle hugs so as not to hurt the ribs!

Bren, I have only flown in a prop plane once, but remember the deafness!  I have just read that John Edwards is in Glasgow and Edinburgh and think I may try to get to one or the other.  Gayle/ Fiona- you fancy it?

Fiona I am so glad you had a good day hun and Dave hope yours went with a swing, I bet George and Freddie looked after you. 

Work has actually been quite enjoyable the last couple of days, Soooooo busy that the day is just zooming by, so I had had a 'good' day today....... that is until I started to watch "My Best Friend's Wedding (I should have known better I have seen it so often that I know exactly what is coming) and there is a bit where the male lead is singing 'Someday, when I'm awfully low ...... etc ... just thinking of you and the way you look tonight" and the tears were streaming down my face cos Ed used to hum that to me.  Oh how one little thing can bring it all crashing in.   But don't worry - I'm fine now - I then read an email from a friend telling me that she had a newly divorced chum round the other night and they spent the night dancing to "All the Single Ladies" while drinking champagne!  She described it so well that I was laughing out loud.  So all okay again.

Boy was on the phone last night and is adamant that he and I are going Island hopping in June ..... so who am I to argue!  Best go and start looking at flights. 

Loads and loads of love to all - Judi xxx

Judi, just you take care and look after yourself. You are always so busy caring for the rest of us. How about you take a turn in the middle of the penguin huddle? Ah go on. You deserve it.

Hope everyone has had the best day they can.

Love and angel hugs x x x Patricia x x x

Morning all , big hugs Judi , your posts are always tears or laughter, usually both lol and once again you haven't failed xx  Lesley i know your probqably reading and not posting but please post when your ready , most of us know what the 6 month mark is like and usually the build up us far worse than the actual day , big hugs hun xx 

  Sorry i didn't get on last night , i was busy looking on google street maps , my daughter had told me to go on it as she said you could almost see into my front room , i couldn't believe it  , how close everything is , you can see my hanging baskets and everything . It was obviouly after april when i put them up . I was thinking was Gordon and i sat at the other side of the window when the photos we're done , or had he died then , was i sat there , oh well i'll probably never know .

  Gayle and i was discussing John Edward yesterday and i'm going to see what time i can get off work , i'm definately up to go and see him . Have train will travel lol .. Anyway must go and get ready ..

 Take care all ..

XXX Lynne XXX

Morning everyone.  I hope everyone is okay.  I have a little bit of extra time this morning as I am not going into work until later.  Downside is I have an orthodontic appointment at the hospital mid-morning.  I don't think I am nervous as I am assuming that they will do the x-rays today and if I need a tooth out I suppose they will make another appointment.  My mum & dad offered to go with me which I really appreciate but I haven't told them I am going today.  They will make a lot of fuss and I just don't think I could handle that.  I think I am probably best on my own today.  I hope everyone has a good day.  Take care.  Ailsa xx

Good luck with ortho appointment Ailsa, hope it is not too scarey for you.

Don't work too hard Lynne. I know you will get this as soon as it is posted so ahve a good day x x x

Lesley, try not to let the kids at work get to you too much. Thinking of you and sending you angel hugs.

Everyone else have the best day you can.

Love and angel hugs x x x Patricia x x x

Morning everyone,

Sending hugs to all you penguins needing a bit of support.  Just a quick post to say I don't mind going to Manchester or Scotland dates for John Edward.  We are probably best seeing who all wants to go and then deciding.  September seems like ages away :-)

Gayle xxx

Hi Gayle

If it is Edinburgh or Glasgow count me in please

Teri

Hello Everyone,

Have been having the week from hell but the weekend is getting closer!

Just a quick one to send everyone a big hug and to let you know that H and I already have tickets for John Edwards in Manchester. We went to see Tony Stockwell at our local theatre last night - it was a last minute thing, I didn't even know he was on until mid morning but I was able to get a couple of tickets so off we went! He was good, no messages for us, but I knew one of the people in the audience who did get one - she was on cloud nine afterwards...

Don't know if I'll get chance to pop back later, am off to my MIL's for a meal tonight. Not sure if it will turn out o be a grilling about Miles' will now they know I have the probate grant sorted... Wish me luck!

Much love, Manda xx

Hi all

Thanks for all your birthday wishes.Through facebook and on here.

It hasnt been an easy couple of weeks to be honest.

The bank where Nic used to work raised about £15k.And i went down to present the cheques to the hospice and chemo unit.Meeting up with Nics consultants.And nurses was really emotional as i havent seen any of them since Nic died.

To top that it was mothers day and then my birtthday,so i shall be glad when this week is over.

Ive been invited to arememberance service tommorow at the hospice.I asked Nics sister if she wanted to come.As she hasnt been down since Nics funeral,and she said she couldnt face it.

So i think i will give it a miss myself.Far too much to deal with in the space of 2 weeks

Anyway i will stop gouing on now.

((((((hugs to you Manda))))))

Thqanks Dave xx