So tired lost my husband 3 weeks ago feel so alone even when so many about i have two teen girls and were struggling to talk just going through the montions so keeping busy keeping ourselves distracted but today can't do anything went to his grave and just lay there so tired and don't seem to see any positive memories just all the things I've done should have done and thinking all the ways I haven't helped do and say the wrong thing even the girls wish it had been me not him and I feel the same i don't seem to do the right thing I'm so angry he's gone and I'm left here not able to cope I just want to escape all of this I honestly think if I was gone everyone would be at peace me especially I even took some meds nothing extreme just codine damasapm and morphine to try and numb the pain and a few glasses of wine don't judge it's after 5pm i really wish I could fall asleep and all the pain and regret and guilt be gone x
