Overwhelmed

You are very early in your grief,  your grief is different to your daughters.  At the moment you focus on the basic  their are hard trust me I know, eat, drink plenty of liquid water especially if you are crying a lot as you will be dehydrated, and sleep. You have to think minute to minute, then hopefully hour to hour, then hopefully day to day. Feel free to rant or ramble on here I do, and it helps. Please try and look after yourself. 

It's so very difficult - and daughters seem to be affected particularly by the loss of their father, or at least, they react differently to their brothers. I understand absolutely that sense of guilt at what you could or should have done or didn't, and how you can only think of the bad times. But it's only been three weeks: you are in the depths of grief and it's not going to get better any time soon. I don't blame you for the glasses of wine: it's my comfort of choice too. But combining it with medications is worrying. Have you got a support system? Would you talk to your GP about how you feel? Or at the very least, look at the Cruse website about how people process grief? Macmillan also offer a helpline that is useful. Well done on reaching out on this forum: it's not a big stretch perhaps to reach out to the professionals? Do take care. 

Thank you x  hearing someone is feeling the same and that it's OK not to be OK helps I've been so busy putting on a brave face and trying  to be something I'm not that I'm just done right now