My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Sorry you had a few tears Gayle but like you say we are going to have these days all our lifes now . Have a good a day possible tommorow and to cheer you up watch danny when he comes back on , cant believe you've missed him lol .....xxxx

Not quite up to speed yet but getting there. I am not back into work agin now until Wednesday and Thursday nights. Can't wait to get them over with.

I hope you are all able to get all the rest you need tonight ready for the day ahead.

Love and angel hugs x x x Patricia x x x

Hi - I've been watching too!!!  I need an early night after not being able to sleep in this morning so going to get ready and then settle down to watch the skate off.  Gayle I am glad Ewan's birthday celebration went well but sorry it made you cry.  I suppose that is what we should expect though isn't it.  Take care of yourself.  Lynne well done with the car boot and making dinner today.  I have just been to my Mum & Dad's for my dinner.  Patricia I hope you have an okay night as well.  As you don't have to be in work again until Wednesday try not to think about it and find something nicer to do with yourself for a few days.  Thinking of you.  ((((((hugs))))))s to everyone.  Ailsa xxx

Hi everyone

As Gayle said, my god you guys can talk - I went back five pages thinking that would be enough ...... but Oh No .... it was nearer ten.  And as a consequence I can't reply to everyone's posts cos I can't remember a thing!!

I notice that NO ONE has told me exactly where they live so I can't put you all on my map which I HAVE put up on the wall by my computer so come on then ....... TELL ME WHERE YOU ARE!!

Had a lovely weekend with mum, dad and Boy and the sun shone the whole time.  Not too much shopping, a little for mum and dad (he is a NIGHTMARE he always thinks thing are too expensive and wont' spend money on himself - quite happy to spend on us, just not him!)

Bitty tearful today over luch cos we were remembering weekends away with Ed, poor mum and dad still think that tears mean I am sad and they shouldn't have said whatever it was that set me off, but it isn't like that at all, I love talking and reminising, and with that comes tears.  I will email dad and try to explain that so they don't worry!!)  Train back I jsut kept my Ipod on and looked out the window.  Funny how I can cope with the everyday stuff and even with the cr*p - it is the good sutff that makes me tearful!

Anyway - I am glad that some of you have obviously had a good weekend and are planning for next weekend - I think I get in about 2 or 2.30 ish.  If you are all already at the hotel then I will just jump in a taxi and run in to the hotel and hug you all.  I am not going to bring any extra clothes as it appears that you guys will have enough to dress the whole of Newcastle!!!! 

I SO missed being able to catch up with everyone this weekend.

Massive hugs and love to everyone.

Judes xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx (more than normal cos I was away)

Oh and PS - Rosemary ........ .step away from the red wine ...... (although I am just off to pour myself a large G&T)

J x

Glad your back Judi , missed you and your posts , i'll PM you with where i live .. Ailsa i have trouble sleeping most nights but i am expecting to sleep tonight . I was going to have a little nap as i've been up since 5.30 but i thought i might just try and sleep tonight .Have i told ou i'm off this week yippee , countdown to sat  .. Cant wait xxxxx

why does it always seem to be Sunday night???????

For you Sue

Evening All,   Well dancing on ice was good tonight, it has been a lovely day here as well managed to get my car washed and hoovered out at last. We are on the count down now to our meet, not looked at the hotel but sounds good. Gayle i do hope Ewan has a brill birthday tomorrow. Judi glad you enjoyed your weekend. Lynne hope you have a nice relaxing week off.  Bren Canada sounds lovely it's the one place i would like to see, Derek would have loved to have seen it as well. Hope everyone else ok? I just work half a day tomorrow. Kim in all day at school Charlie off for his first full day at the child minders. Lesley i am sure you loved every minute of Daniel i know what you mean about them smiling at you. I have Charlie on Thurs again as Kim got another half days course. Well i am off to bed now on the count down to our meet now. Luv and Hugs to you all. Fiona xxxxxxxxxxx   

Morning all , well off work and still cant stay in bed  but i did sleep well whisti was there , i love my leccy blanket lol . Fiona , thank you i wil enjoy my week off but i have got loads planned , just little things as i know if i sit to long i get depressed . My car being cleaned out too is one of the things and i'm hoping if the weather stays fine and dry i might get some things doen at the church yard . I actually sat on the bench yesterday (without getting a frozen bum ) the sun is on it right untill it sets and it was quite warm . We had a good chat . Hope everybody has a good day .. Gayle give Ewen a birthday hug from his Aunty Lynne . speak later Lynnexxxx

Hi everyone.  I've been to my pilates again.  I think it is starting to pay dividends.  I'm sure my back isn't as bad as it was although it is very stiff in the morning.

Judi I always feel as though my mum & dad don't understand my tears either.  Some tears are for the best and not to be brushed away.  For your map - I live in Barnsley, South Yorkshire.  Not a million miles from Lynne & Patricia.  You will find it near Sheffield.  We will be watching out for you at about 2pm on Saturday.

Lynne enjoy your week off.  I would love a week off right now just pottering.  I was sitting on Chris's bench yesterday as well.  It was so nice to have the sun on my back.  I could have sat there all day.  I take a little cushion so my bum doesn't freeze!!!  I seriously am planning on taking small picnic's through there when the weather is better.  A better road is being built that will take me to the cemetery so when it is finished I will be riding my bike through there with my picnic in the basket.  What do you reckon - small bottle of wine as well!  Can I get done for being drunk in charge of a push bike?  They will have to catch me first.  Hee hee - only kidding.

You sound like you are getting all ready as well Fiona.  My mum mentioned last night that we might need to book the restaurant because it is mother's day the next day - does anyone think she is right?

Sue you are so right - why does it always seem to get to Sunday so quickly at the weekend?

Right I am going to check out our hotel and then get off to bed.  Take care everyone.  Ailsa xxx