My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Just  a quick post to say I met with Ailsa. Poor thing she must have earache now after listening to me. If she says I made her spend all her money then PLEASE don't believe her. After all I didn't exactly twist her arm up her back. lol.

Have a good night everyone. I am off to work now.

Love and angel hugs x x x Patricia x x xc

Glad you managed to meet up Patricia, what did Ailsa spend all her money on? I hope she saved some for next weekend!

Hope work is OK.

Lesley x

Oh so pleased for Patricia and Ailsa , i cant wait for some photos to go on F/B . Dont temm me you didn't take any ??

Hi everyone.  First things first - there are no photos but that is because we never stopped gassing from the minute we met until we parted!  Surely that reason buys us an excuse!?!  I have had a lovely afternoon with Patricia and can't wait until we can do it again.  I love her sense of humour - I really hope you didn't mow anyone down at the pedestrian crossing Patricia - I did say you had to stop if the lights were at red!!  I have saved the serious clothes shopping money for next weekend but I did spend a little in TK Maxx and a little more in the works on sky candles in colours.  Why did no-one tell me before that the works sold sky candles in colours for 99p each?  I am so excited about meeting all you others next weekend.

Lynne I am glad your gamble paid off and that it was worth starting work early today.  You sound a little more like the you I am used to.  I hope you enjoy the party on Saturday and the boot sale on Sunday.

Helen I would love to have had the oportunity to go prom dressing shopping with my daughters.  They finished school just before the craze for proms really took off.  I was talking to a work mate who is doing the same with her daughter right now.  She said it felt like the nearest thing you could do to wedding dress shopping with your daughter.

Sue I hope you enjoy your chinese meal and that you went out in ironed not crumpled trousers!

Lesley the photo is beautiful.  Well done for posting it.  So glad you feel a little better.  I think I would say you should consider getting rid of the bamboo plant.

From what I read before work this morning Gayle & Bren are also feeling a little better.  Good, I am very glad to hear that.  I hope maybe Manda (& H) are feeling a little better - lots of love to you both ((((((hugs)))))).

Rosemary I would love to come to your purple hat day.  I am doing a midnight walk for the hospice and the race for life at Ponte on the weekend of the 12th & 13th June and I am going to a Simply Red concert on the 18th June.  The rest of June I have free so I would love to gatecrash if I can.

Going to click send now so that I can see if anyone else has posted.  Take care everyone.  Ailsa xx

Hi Ailsa , ok i'll forgive you for not taking the photos , i can imagine what a meeting it was , so so pleased for you both , i know how much of a boost it gave me after meeting Gayle . Yes i am getting back to "me" again , its so hard tho isn't it when you've had a good few days and then wham , oh well onwards and upwards .. 8 sleepsxxxx

Morning everyone.  I woke in the middle of the night and realised I hadn't told you of a lovely thing that happened while I was with Patricia yesterday - we were having coffe and had been in the cafe a little while when Patricia spotted that the glass screens around the cafe all had pairs of penguins on them!  Then I turned my cup round and there were the same pairs of penguins.  How brill is that?

I hope you all wake up feeling okay today.  I am at the hairdressers in a couple of hours then I am off to the cemetery and then Stu & Suzanne are coming round this afternoon to spend the rest of the day with me.  I foresee some catching up, some wii antics, a takeaway and a wee drink later.  Take care everyone.  Ailsa xxx

Mornning Ailsa , what a lovely way to start the morning . I look for penguins all the time now , i've actually seen a big one (about 3 foot) in a toy shop in Bakewell (some of you will know where that is ) i drive past it all the time whilst i'm working and it seems to be calling out to me so whislt i'm off next week i may be having a trip over there to go and bring him home lol . Got a lot on today so i may not get back on , i wish you all a trouble free weekend (Lesley !! )

 Take care

 Lynne xxxxx

Good morning everyone

Lynne, I'm glad to hear you are feeling a bit better.

Ailsa, so glad the meet went well for you, what a coincidence about the penguins! I am off to the hairdressers too at 9am. I'm quite looking forward to just sitting and chilling for a couple of hours.

Thanks for the texts yesterday, it's always nice to hear from you all throughout the day, even though I'm not so good at sending them myself! When I went to my bereavement group on Thursday, I was telling the group about you all. One lady whose husband died just 4 weeks ago, was saying what we all have said over the last few months. That evenings are the worst, when you come in and shut the door and are alone. I told them when I feel like that I switch on my laptop and talk to everyone here, not alone, no problem........ well except when you all hide from me, lol x 

I am having Daniel agian overnight and am looking forward to it. I have his new bouncing chair ready for him to play on. Even though it was traumatic putting it together, I managed to break two nails and take 40 minutes. B***dy electric screwdriver! Wish I had asked Colin so many things now instead of having to work them out for myself.

What are you all taking next week, are we dressing casual for the evening? Not sure what to take.... help!

Rosemary, I don't think I will be able to come in June as am at work. If I remember rightly it is a fairly long trip by train, I don't know what day you are thinking of having the party but I would struggle to make it there and back over the weekend in time for work on Monday. I am only allowed to take school holidays off. Not that I am moaning as 13 weeks in plenty  :-)  It's a shame really I never wear hats, it would be fun to wear a purple one! I will have to take a photo of me in a hat and send it with my love instead x

Shopping for dresses, how  lovely. I remember shopping with Rachel and Liane, her bridesmaid for their dresses, we had such fun. I loved going to all the fittings etc, the hair practice. The look on Colin's face when he saw his lovely daughter in her dress was priceless, so proud. We were so lucky that he got to see both his children married.

Hope you all have a lovely Saturday, this time next week......

Love Lesley x

Ha, ha Lynne, I will try my best t stay out of trouble!

Ha Ha Lesley sorry but you are in danger of having my calamity Jane title and you are quite welcome to it lol . OOOh i love the what are we wearing post , i'm getting excited now , WHAT IS EVERYBODY WEARING lOL , i Know Judi is going for the Thong look , i'll probably wear Trousers and a top , or jeans and a top , or a skirt and boots , or a dress and hells(Judis word ) or aghhhhh i dont know ..... xxxxx