My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Morning all , Sorry i didn't get on Lesley ,these late shifts really knock me for 6 , but hoping to get done earlier today but i am going in for 8 this morning . We had the choice we could start at 11 again and probably be late again tonight or go in early and work up till everything is cleared . We have gambled and are going in early in the hope that everybody is ready early to go home . My bonkers crew mate makes the day go very fast but i do want to take his batteries out sometimes , he never shuts up , and i am talking hyperactive lol . Anyway only today with him then i am off next week and than i think my usual crew mate might be back , but he has shaken me out of my mood , so thats something . Judi have a good weekend with your parents , roll on next weekend when you will be on your way down to us . Glad your first week went well .. Ailsa and Patricia , i hope you get to meet today and i'm especially glad that Patricia is getting to meet someone as she is midssing out on the meet next week but wont be long Patricia for the wedding now .. Lesley so pleased to hear your back is slowly recovering and you know you are in danger of taking my calamity Jane title lol but you are most welcome to it .. Amanda i'm pleased to hear you are slowly dragging your self back up , i know what you mean about not posting when your down but like (i think it was Ailsa or was it Judi ) said sometimes just writing it down does help .. Gayle you have fun in Aberdeen , what a shame you'll miss Judi again , you better not miss each other next week lol.. and Gayle never stop getting up to mischief lol , so glad your feeling more like your self again .. Dottee big hugs , i hope Alan is managing with his pain relief .. Fiona ,Good that Darren is still working , usually one things leads to another and i;m sure he'll be fine now ..Bren , hope your cold is geting better now , whats the weather like there now .. Helen and Sue hope your week at work is going ok , not long till easter lol . you sure do have a lot of holidays lol .. Rosemary i too have lost long posts and i if i lose this one grrrrrrr . Take care all yippee its Fri  hi to everybody else xxxx

opOOPSi knew i'd forgotten someone , Hi Dave .....

Feeling good this morning, maybe I shouldn't say that, am I tempting fate?

Had a lovely sleep and feel in the mood to get up and going.

Judi, hope you have a great weekend in Glasgow. Ailsa, make sure you take a pic of you and Patricia, aw I wish you were coming to next weekend.

Fiona, it's great having our babies around isn't it? It is so hard to be down when you get that lovely smiley face looking up at you.  :-)

Hello to everyone, I hope you all have a good day today and will speak to you all later, I'm sure. Going to try to post a pic now! If it goes wrong then you will have to make allowences for me!

My special little man and his smiley face xx

Ahhhhhhh he is so lovely , what a smashing pic , well done on the posting and i hope your good mood stays Lesley xxxxxxx

Morning all

Now THAT is what I can a photo - He is gorgeous!!

Still not packed a bag yet - I used to be good at being organised but within two hours I have to have the dogs at the kennels, a bag packed ....... wonder what I will take to wear!!

So just quickly dipping in to say hi, I will miss you all over the weekend.  Alisa and Patricia have a lovely meet. I will speak to you on Sunday night when I am back and I promise to have my bag packed by this time next week for Newcastle.  That bag will be easy .... two thongs (NOT!) some PJs, a couple of bottles of wine, pint glasses of cider and my camera.  That should do it!

Everyone do theit best to have a good weekend.  Loads of love Judi xxxxx

Just came across this song which I have not heard for a long time but just feel it is appropriate for me. Thought you might like to hear it. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RMTKb-pgxGI     and this one too http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jKHFWpaTUmY&NR=1   this guy had cancer and died in 2003 from inoperable lung cancer (just likje my Ray). He was a singer that Ray greatly admired so it is rather ironic that they died of similar things. The second tune is a Dylan song I believe but Warren made his own version. x x x

Sue me too!!! Wine chilling as we speak lol!! Been a busy week at work, been in our room, nursery and reception this week. All good fun!!!

Judi have a lovely weekend, Ailsa and Patricia cant wait to hear about your meet x

Lesley the photo is gorgeous and glad you re feeling better.....sssshhhh!!! lol

Well ladies not long until we meet, cant wait now!!! Cant remember what time you re all planning on arriving so will have to check with you x

Lynne hope you ve managed to finish at a decent time and Fiona dont work too hard.

What s everyone up to this weekend?

I m `prom` dress shopping with Nat tomorrow and got a review at the gym on Sunday. Our local has a group on tomorrow night so been asked to go there but not sure yet. Might have a quiet one this weekend with being away next.

Hope everyone is ok.....sure you feel better for it being Friday!!!!!!!!!!!

Hugs to all

Helen xxx

Hi, Helen

off for a meal with friends tonight at the Chinese restaurant in town. Just had my haircut - need to iron some trousers to wear out but am too tired - will have to do it in a minute.    Decided I work better under pressure, and to a deadline!

sue xx

Evening all , Helen i finished just after 5 so our gamble paid off , actually got home in the light lol . Prom dreaa shopping oooh i think you need Gayle and Lesley with you too , have fun .. Patricia i havn't listened to the songs yet but i will , hope your ok hun and have managed to meet up with Ailsa .. Amanda , hope your enjoying Johnny Depp  , save some for us please ... Sue enjoy your meal with your friends , and GET THOSE TROUSERS IRONED NOW !!! is that enough presure ??? . I've got a pretty busy weekend (thank goodness ) A party tommorow night but i have to be up sunday morning to help sis with the rest of her boot sale things that we we're trying to sell a couple of weeks ago  .. Then i will cook the sunday lunch for them all seeing as though i'll be away (yippeeeee) the weekend after .. Getting excited now ladies . Helen i think we#re getting there at different times , i get there at 11'30 but i'm waiting for Ailsa's train to come in at 12.30 . not sure what time everybody else is getting there , just bring it on .......Be back later Lynne xxxx  

 Ps`  Rosemary June is fine by me for purple hat , you'll have to Pm a local hotel for us all as i'm sure a few more penguins will come too ...