My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Crossed in the post Helen!  Waving at you madly, come and share the tv with me I have it to myself tonight and can make you hot drinks and munch some biscuits if you like xxxxx

Hi Rosemary will be over shortly, hope you dont mind me being in my pjs!!!

Glad Darren is back soon and ok

Helen xxx

Daniel, Helen lol x

Ha ha,thanks Lesley. So many names lol!!!

Losing my marbles lol xx

Ahh blame Judi, she started it.  DARREN is my plumber (lovely chap) and DANIEL is my son (also a lovely chap), actually Darren is also a police officer who married another police officer (female and a right b...h) at our stables, lovely bloke.  I forgive you and of course PJ's are the thing to wear, will grab the duvet back from Geordie and we can snuggle under that together! xxx

Wait for me Rosemary , i'll bring goodies too . Thanks for all the masages and texts today i dont know where i would be without you all . I feel better tonight than i have over the weekend , too much time to think . I'm sorry for making you cry with my little story  Helen and Ailsa , i just wrote what i was feeling at the time . Big hugs to you all and especially Patricia xxxxxx

Evening to you All,   Just catching up with all the posts, we all seem to be having a rough time. Judi i do hope you got on ok today?  Lesley i hope you are feeling a bit better today? You will be glad your daughter is there to help you. Charlie was off to his child minder for the morning to see how he would get on and he was fine but Kim got a bit upset, i have him on Wed as she has a course.  My brother in law has got Darren work for this week so that's good as he is getting fed up at home, he has an early start 5.30 so hope he gets on ok.  It's been a nice day here today but very cold tonight. Hope everyone else is ok tonight, i am off to make a coffee. Luv and Hugs to you all. Fiona xxxxxxxxx

Well the worker is here!!!  The day went well - to be honest I really wasn't too stressed about the actual job ... it was the reason behind having to get it that stressed me.  But much better today - that maybe something to do with the fact that in total I have walked over eight miles if you count the dog walks and the two round trips to work!!!  Helen ...... what do you say to that! 

Lynne massive hugs my darling - you know that every one of us can say with total honesty that we know how you feel and just wish we could take the hurt away.  But hun the hurt only comes cos the love was so great. 

Lesley, I have my fingers crossed and made Joe and Kat cross their paws that the recovery time is speedy, speedy.  I am so glad that your lot are charging round you. I know that you think they have enough to do, but they obviously want to do it for you and know that you would do exactly the same for them.  Dottee not only am I jealous of your song/poem but also that your MORE button works.  Although if ours did then I wouldn't have got my thongs or spent the evening in high hells!!

Patricia, I know that you have had your family round you today, I hope you got some 'you' time if you needed it.  (((((((     )))))))). 

Rosemary - I KNOW that I started the whole Darren/Daniel debate, but I am glad that the plumber is lovely, and the policeman too!!  PJs are just going on, so shove up a little would you.   Oi Helen, share the choccies would you - Lynne, grab them off her would you or we will never get one. 

Am off to talk to the dogs for a bit as they have been on their own a lot of today.  I don't actually think they  missed me, they were still sleeping when I got home at 5.30 and I had to rouse them at lunchtime to go out for a walk!.

Hope to pop back later, loads of love to everyone.  Judes xxxxx

Fiona, we must have crossed.  I have pushed Helen onto a bean bag so you can have a seat on the squidgy settee by me!!  So glad that DARREN has got something, it will keep him busy for a while.  If all else fails you could send him to Rosemary, one more Darren (and I think he is probably lovely too!) to the mix down there would be fine! lol.  Kim will be worried about Charlie, it is always the mums that get upset isn't it.

Judi xx

Hi all.  Judi I am so glad your first day went well.

Dot your fairy poem is really nice, thank you.

Helen the weekends seem to be over quicker than ever.  I don't seem to be quite as motivated for my job as I was a few years ago and I think that makes Sunday evening come round way too fast.

Rosemary my PJs are on and me and my fleecy blanket and my ted need to be out there on the ledge with one of your very nice free drinks please.  Room for one more??  It will be nice when Daniel gets home on Friday.  What is it with dentists and us lot?  Good luck with yours.  I have my hospital appointment for the orthodontist through now - 18th March.

Fiona I am pleased to hear Darren got a job for at least a week.  Poor Kim - it is always so hard for new mums when they have to leave the baby with anyone other than family.

Patricia I am sending you lots of love and lots of ((((((((hugs)))))))) for today.  I hope you are okay.  Please take care of yourself or better still let someone else take care of you.

There is nothing much more for me to say this evening.  I think all the driving is catching up a bit on me tonight so i am going to make my way to bed very shortly.  I hope everyone is okay.  Take care.  Ailsa xxx