My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

How do I make the more button work - my typos are driving me mad!

i don't think many of the 'more' buttons actually work - mine doesn't either.

sue xx

Rosemary - I am so glad that it sounds as if Daniel is feeling a bit better, as long as he listens to his MUM!!!!.  And thank you for being my friend again!!  Could you budge up a bit cos I don't want to fall out the edge of the bed, and is it okay - I brought my own pillow?  Oh, these ..... yes they are new PJs they are so cosy.

Fiona, just give me a buzz next time you are shopping, I just LOVE the idea of you coming to me and then we can each have a trolley and follow each other round cherry picking each others ideas of what to buy.  Maybe I would then end up with a healthier trolley than normal!!  What kind of work is Darren looking for?  So damn hard for youngsters nowadays to find any suitable kind of work.  I am dreading the day that Boy finishes uni and has to find an appropriate job - we just want them to be able to do something that they enjoy don't we.  Maybe I will just persuade him to stay there for years and years (quite expensive me thinks) but if he did it long enough then when he has a really long beard they might just assume he is a lecturer and put him on the payroll!!

Loads of love   ......... Oi, Rosemary stop hogging the duvet......... Judi xxxx

Judi, good luck for tomorrow. I am sure you will wow them all.

Lesley glad you have your cast off. Take care and don't overdo it.

Rosemary, take care hun and try not to worry too much about Daniel. Hopefully he will nowbe on the mend and enjoy the rest of his holiday.

Lynne, I hope that you get the nutrition sort for your dad. Such a worry. That is a bad oversight on their part.

Ailsa, I hope you manage to get some rest time tomorrow.

Fiona, fingers crossed for Darren that he manages to secure employment soon.

To all I have not mentioned I send good wishes.

Love and angel hugs x x x Patricia x x x

Rosemary, hope Daniel continues to improve, it is such a worry to not be close by.  Judi you will be great tomorrow.

Lesley, Danny and I were also very quiet, just the two of us, especially as we were not able to have children, we were even closer.  My new friends are mostly new people at work who have been so exceptionally good to me.  I do have a new neighbour, a single lady who I see at her work when I treat myself to a coffee at Starbucks on the way to work.  It is very hard to make new friends for me too usually.  I think I am so vulnerable that I am maybe more open to others now.  I am very glad to have met all my new penguin friends here.  You have been so supportive and even if I don't post as often as I could, I do read what you post and can agree with all of the feelings.

Today, Ontario got winter back again with a blast.  It was a nasty, slippery drive home from work.  Several years ago I would have asked Dan to pick me up on a day like this so I wouldn't have to drive but last year I started getting braver and did not ask for a ride home once.  I am now settled in with my hot chocolate to watch a bit of the olympics and then an early night.  My 14-year-old niece is an extremely talented singer and is in two school choirs.  They are performing in Cambridge today and tomorrow so I hope to get to see her tomorrow.  This is a first as they are from Toronto and don't usually come here.   Otherwise I hope to have a quiet week.

hope all of you have a good night

Bren, well done on doing the drive in the awful weather conditions. I hope you manage to get to see your niece. How lovely that you are now making some new friends. I know it is not easy. Take care x x

Love and angel hugs x x x Patricia x x x

Hello everyone, this is just a very quick post to say that I hope you are all having the best posible day you can.

Love and angel hugs x x x Patricia x x x

Evening all , well i got the food for dad sorted pretty fast this morning , i tracked the nutitionist down quite easy (in her office ) she said she'd forgotten to phone dad and was very sorry , she got some food ordered and i picked it up later on . I didn't say to much to her as for some reason (obvious reason really) i was feeling really really sad and low ,and i couldn't be bothered with annything much . Thank you for the texts this morning ladies they certainly lifted me out of the doldrums . The thought of the penguin posse made me giggle Judi and the very thought of Patricia and her big guns made me smile even more , Ailsa i hope your taking it easy and Rosemary i was so glad to hear that Dan was a little better this morning , i hope he's still recovering . I'm still feeling a little drained so i'll make this short for now xxxx lynne xxxxx

Hi all

Rosemary, have you had any more news on Dan? I am glad they let him out but hope he is on the mend, when is he due home?

Lynne, I hope your dad got sorted today, sometimes everything seems a bit hit and miss, not much organisation.

It is windy, cold and trying to snow here tonight, I'm feeling a bit down again, no reason why, other than the usual. Just sitting with Catface at my side, trying to get onto my lap but the laptop is there! he has gone from one extreme to the other and won't leave me alone now!

Had a rubbish day at work, I won't go into details, too depressing, I really must look for something else but am a bit frightened of making any big decisions right now, don't always feel like I trust my own judgement. Think I will stop typing now until I have something positive to say!

Hope everyone is OK, love and hugs Lesley x

Lynne post must have crossed, glad your dad is sorted. Seems I am not the only one down today, big hug for you! x