My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Lynne, my support to you and your dad. Such a worry. That thickener ios terrible stuff isn't it? My mum had to have that for a while and stopped drinking altogether because of it (they gave her it due to a stroke). hope he goes on ok over the next few days  x x x

Love and angel hugs x x x Patricia x x x

Thanks Patricia xxxxx Night all xxxxxxxxxx

Good night, everyone

sleep tight

Sue xx

Evening All, Sorry i seem to always be posying late at night, Been to my dad's tonight for tea and then stay to see him in to his bed, he also has COD and depends on oxygen and can't move very far without being out of breath. I have been catching up in all the post but the usual forgot have what i have read so just going to send hugs and luv to you all. I have been at the hospise with my niece's wee girl she was handing over her sponser money it was very emotional as not been there since Derek died and brought back a lot of memories. Had a bad day on Fri as well and ended up having to close shop early as just started crying and couldn't stop. Was out for a chinese with a friend last night not been in touch with her for ages so we got caught up. Got up this morning to more snow but didn't last long. Lesley will get some more photos of Charlie on soon, Kim put one on with him with my penguin i bought for our meet, he is growing so fast and he is now sleeping all night so thats good. Well i am off to bed now and will try and post earlier the next time. Hugs Fiona xxxxxxxxxxx  

Big hugs Fiona

Good morning my lovely friends

I'm feeling in a good mood today, even though it's back to school day! It is also removal of my cast day.

I'm hoping I can start my new regime of going to the gym 3 times weekly, I can wash my hair without stupid plastic sleeve in the way and most of all I can bath my little man!

Bren' it's nice to hear you are making some new frieds. I admire that, it's something I find very difficult to do in the real world. I am fairly quiet and it takes me a while to trust people. Like you said people have been very kind and there have been offers of outings, I have taken up a few but it is not something I find easy, so used to it being just the two of us.

Patricia, I know what you mean about ageing! Daily I look in the mirror and swear that there are wrinkles and lines where before there were none, I'm sure all the crying takes it's toll. It feel strange to think I will probably grow old whilst Colin will remain forever 52.

Lynne, hugs to you, I hope your dad hears some good news soon.

Fiona, hugs to you too. Can't wait to see more Charlie pics. I think daniel is heading towards sleeping through too. When he slept over he woke for his night feed but by the time I had it ready he had nodded off again! In the end he had a little just to please me I think, but not much. So hopefully it won't be long. I bet Kim is enjoying her longer sleeps! Rachel is thinking she may not return to work at the end of her mat' leave, she wants to stay at home with Daniel, I hope she can manage to.

Anyone else who is looking in, I'm wishing you a calm and peaceful day.

Love and hugs Lesley xx

Well my dear friends I hope that the day is good to you in whatever way it can.

I am trying  to motivate myself as I have a dental appointment in just over an hour. I am going to be in trouble when I get there because it is well over a year since I went and I have already lost a 'crown'. I last visited when Ray was ill and he came with me. Oh well, have to be brave and get on with it. I just hope I don't break down in tears.

I shall be buyng a couple of sky lanterns today for my niece to take to a memorial for her uncle (39 year old ). So thank you Sue for that suggestion way back in 2009. It has become a very big hit with this family x x x

Bye for now, Love and angel hugs x x x Patricia x x x

Good evening everyone.  I am safely back home.  Got here just after midnight last night.  I have yo go out to pilates very soon so this is just a quick post while I digest what I have been reading.  I am very sorry but had another mini meltdown yesterday morning.  Seems there are a few of us feeling like that right now so I don't feel alone.  I am confident that all my lovely new friends on here can help each other on our bad days.  Will speal again after my pilates.  Take cae everyone.  Ailsa  xxx

Evening all, hope everyone is doing ok, Patricia how was the dentist?  Ailsa glad you are home safe and over the meltdown to some degree - I think there is so much going on and this never ending winter is just not helping and getting us all down, so come into the huddle my love ((()))  Lynne, how is your dad?  Thank you for your text back, sorry I missed your call I was driving to the yard,

Having another week from hell, Daniel has gone to Tenerife with three mates and got a text from him today saying he had an upset stomach, spoke to him at lunch time and he was quite bad with it but not being sick, although he was getting awful cramps in his legs and feet which I assumed were from dehydration, next thing he was being sick whilst I was on the phone (his mates were at the beach thinking him in bed and just feeling a bit rough), I told him to get a doctor. The hotel were very  good and got him a doctor straight away, he had an injection in his bum and a prescription for some pills.  By four o clock he phoned again to say he was now vomiting blood and the cramps were so painful he was screaming, the doctor was on his way.  At 10 past 5 his mate phoned to say they were at the hospital and he was just waiting to hear what was happening, bless him, he then phoned again about 1/2 and hour ago to say they were doing blood tests and putting him on a drip.  So please send positive thoughts and healing thoughts and angels to my little (6 foot) lad and get him better for me.  Don't think I can cope with much more, all we needed was for him to have a nice holiday and come home. 

Take care all and lots of love from me, will be on the ledge tonight with a large umbrella, a sleeping bag and a bottle of something, not sure if we can get the fire going in this rain but will have a go! xxxx

Rosemary, I hope Daniel is soon on the mend, it sounds like they are quickly doing all they can to find out what the problem is. I know you must be worried sick. Let us know on here as soon as you find out because I am worrying for you. Sending you hugs and kind thoughts. xx

Well had my cast taken off today, so pleased but my wrist still feels very weak. They are going to send me for some physio' so will see how that goes. I'm hoping to start swimming again later this week, so that should help some.

Thanks Lynne for the text, sorry I am not much good at texting. I have just got a new mobile and although I have worked out how to get predictive text I don't know how change the word if it is not the one I want!

I wish I could look at everyone's posts when I am typing as I can't remember what everyone has said! I've no more news so I will say bye for now!

Night all xx