HAPPY BIRTHDAY, BOY

Morning everyone

Judi I m not sure why but I am sat here with tears streaming down my face reading your post about `boy` becoming a man. When Liam turned 18 in December I felt some of your feelings but also so sad Paul wasnt here to see it. Like you I wanted to make his birthday so special but had to escape at one stage of the evening as the emotions got the better of me.

Judi you have done so well, you make us all laugh and have planned so much for this 21st, hope it all goes past perfectly. Sure it will xxx

I think I have had too much time on my hands this week and too much time to think. Still feel as if I am passing days for the sake of it, when will I feel I am enjoying days for me. Sorry to moan this morning, not sure where all these tears have come from this morning.

Anyway me and Nat had a lovely time yesterday, Avatar was fab and we then went to Pizza hut for tea but I had to send my meal back twice and thats not me! I hate compaining but it was cold and then obviously just re heated in microwave. Anyway my meal was finally lovely and I got a free salad, 2 glasses of rose and a chocolate cheesecake lol!! We then called into our local for a quick drink and chat with friends.

Rosemary hope your back eases soon and bug higs to Dottee ((()))

Off to Tescos today then meeting a friend for a few drinks at tea time

Have a good day everyone

Helen xxx

Hello everyone,

Judi - what a lovely sentiment about Boy and I am absolutely positive he knows he has the best mum in the world.  You will have a great day tomorrow, and yes, it will be full of emotion but thats only normal.  Boy is very lucky to have you.  He will always be your little boy no matter whether its his 21st or 40th (well thats what I tell my two!) xxx

Hope everyone else is well as I have forgotten what you all said already!  I think all you lot are spreading your forgetfulness onto me - well thats my story and I'm sticking to it.

Thank you all so much for registering for the toys.  I have helped run this playgroup for about 3 years and even though I now live 60 miles away from it I still do it as it is such a good cause (and they won't let me go!!!).  Its for kids aged 2.5yrs to about 4yrs and it is amazing how much they gain from it in confidence and enjoyment.  We don't get any funding to run it and the fees don't even cover the wages and rent so we are always fundraising to try and raise money.  I donated some money last year when Wully died as he and I both thought a lot of the place so that will keep us going for about a year (no-one knows apart from my best friend who is the playleader).  Made me feel good to help though.  The toys we got last year were well used as they were lots of outdoor toys like balls and things and the kids loved them so hopefully we will get loads more this year.  Thanks again - I am very lucky to have met such a lovely group of friends. 

Anyway, Friday is my lazy day as the kids are away and I "officially" don't work so I am off to mooch about and be lazy.  My parents are away for the weekend so a quiet one for me as no babysitters but I plan to do lots of cleaning as I have a friend coming to stay next weekend so want the place all nice.

Take care everyone and hope you have a good Friday.

Gayle xxx

Lynne - forgot to mention too you.  I don't know whether you saw the Sun last week where Ashley Cole allegedly was meeting a girl in a hotel.  Well it was the hotel we stayed in!!! It had a pic in the paper!!

Aww Judi, your post has touched my heart and I have tears in my eyes. (((((((love and hugs))))))) to you. I hope the birthday celebrations go well.

Rosemary, I hope that your back is feeling a little less painful today. it is not pleasant when your back hurts like crazy but I am sure you will eventually recover and feel more like your old self. x x

Gayle, enjoy your day x x

Helen, I am glad you had a pleasant meal in the end x x

Sue, you never fail to amaze me with the fab pictures you find. I hope that you are 'in a better place' now and feeling better in yourself. I know things have been hard for you lately x x

Dottee, ((((love and hugs)))) to you and Alan.

Ailsa, Lynne hope you're not working too hard.

Everyone I haven't yet mentioned, have as good a day as you can x x x

Love and angel hugs to you all x x x Patricia x x x

You have all written so many posts, I can't keep up with them.  I am back from my little vacation in Montreal, it was very nice, quiet a good visit with an old friend.  So nice to have no responsibilities and have someone else drive the car.  I have been tired this week, out for dinner with friends on Wednesday and tonight I am going to dinner and to see Avatar with another friend and then to a Chinese New Year celebration tomorrow which should be fun.  I am also banging right into anniversary dates as well.  Yesterday was 6 year since I quit smoking but the reason I did quit was Dan had been in intensive care in hospital where we discovered he had COPD and he came home on oxygen which he needed for the next 4 years.  So that was also a bit sad for me.  Next week will be 33 years since we met and the 4 month anniversary of losing him.  Can't escape those days but I do get through them.  

I found I don't dream much at all either but don't sleep well, even with medication.  WIthout it I would not sleep at all.  The only time I did dream of Dan was soon after he died and I had taken a nap.  He was ill in both those dreams.  I am looking forward to dreaming of a healthy husband someday.

Hope all of you have wonderful weekends planned, Manda hope you have a terrific time on vacation with H.

love Bren 

I have posted some Canadian photos on Facebook for you all, pm me and I can add you on as friends.  Most of our photos were on vacation, usually out of Canada, I have loads from England, Scotland, Ireland from last summer but I tried to find the ones you might enjoy. 

Hi All

Well thats half term almost over .MIL said she would have the kids tonight.So ive made arrangements to go out ,hastily.

It seems to have flown round,ive managed to get some quality time with George,whilst Freddies been at nursary,hes such agood kid and just gets on with it.It breaks my heart to think what hes missing out on with his mum..

Anyway thats the situation we are in and we have to deal as best as we can with it.I try to do my best for them,but i cant give them the motherly side of things,so we all have our routines and carry on.

I hope everyones is fairing ok .I will think of you all at your get together.I shall be at centre parcs that week.

Enough rambling now thanks a lot Dave xx

Evening all , Well i to started the day in tears , Judi Judi Judi , as i said in my text this morning , your posts usually have me in stitches but this time it was tears , i feel so proud to know you . and i hope your having a fantastic tme at the party by now ... Bren , so glad you've had a good break , i've PM 'd you for you to add me on F/B , i'd love to look at your pics . ... Hope you enjoy your "time off" Dave , your doing a fantastic job with the boys and Nic would be so proud of you .. Gayle i didn't see that pic in the sun but i will google it and see if i can find it , fancy that Ashley Cole in OUR Hotel . ohh wonder if he was there when we we're lol . Think we might have to hang out there more often ,lol . .. Hope Helen is enjoying her few drinks now , ha ha she'll be suffering tommorow lol .. Whats everybody else up too this weekend ?  xxx

Evening all

Just a quickie! I had a really lovely day yesterday with Rachel, Dave and Daniel. They have decided to let me look after him alone tonight, they have gone home and are hoping to catch up on some sleep. Rachel has already rang 3 times, bless her, she already misses him! She says she feels guilty for wanting to have a good sleep but I don't think she should. She carried him for 9 months and has been with him constantly for the last 7 weeks, I think she is lucky to have someone she can trust who can't wait for the pleasure. He s so lovely, I don't mind at all and I can catch up on any lost sleep anytime.

Judi, I hope all goes well at Boy's special party, have a lovely time.

Dave, nice to hear from you.You are doing a great job with your boys, I'm sure Nic would be so proud of you all. Enjoy your evening off!

I briefly read the posts between feeds and burping, lol. Sorry but I can't remember what everyone has said! So I wish you all a calm and enjoyable weekend.

Oh, yes, hugs to Helen, it is unusual to hear you are down, I am sure you have your moments too though but we are all here for you. Hugs and love Lesley xx

Lynne - yes we will need to go back to that hotel.  Obviously we have amazing taste if we frequent a hotel that rich footballers hang out in lol.

Lesley, again your post struck a chord with me.  I remember when I had Jamie everyone warned me about sleep deprivation but you don't really understand till it happens.  I was sooooo tired and sooooo jealous of anyone talking about sleeping lol.  I was starting to lose the plot I think.  Wully wasn't ill at that point (or was ill but hadn't been diagnosed) but was working so we agreed eventually that he would do a Friday night and I could sleep in another room to get a full nights sleep, but of course his first Friday was the first night Jamie slept through and continued to do so ever since lol.  I remember we went away after having Ewan and probably because he was my 2nd I was fine leaving him and so enjoyed the rest.  I also understand about the trust thing.  For about the first 2 years of both boys lives the only person who ever babysat was my mum.  I wouldn't even let my dad watch them alone until about 18mths ago and that was only because Wully was so ill and I was desperate so had to.  He watches them all the time now but it is hard to leave them with someone else.  My sister only has them very occasionally.  Hope you are having a great evening with your lovely little man.

Hope everyone else has an okay weekend.  Mine is going to be very boring with cleaning and other stuff but got busy week next week so should rest while I can. 

Bren - I too would love to see your pics - add me on FB please

Gayle xxx