My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Love the pic Bren!

Judi - just wanted to post to say I am thinking of you tomorrow xx  You know where we all are if you need a cuddle. 

I'm off to bed now after doing my wii fit for an hour so at least I did one productive thing today.

Fiona, just being there for Kim will be enough.  Its okay to cry together and her hormones will be all over the place still which won't help her feelings at the moment.  I remember after having my two that I could cry at the drop of a hat for about a year afterwards over the silliest things so if Kim is having to deal with losing her lovely dad which is such a huge thing, then it must be very hard.  Sending gentle hugs your way.

I can report that Dave is alive and well and I have gave him a row and told him to report back to you all that he is okay (sorry Dave for landing you in it).

Night penguins.

Gayle xx

Good morning everyone.  I had a lot of reading to do this morning!!  Well done.

Hi Hazel.  So sorry to read about Paul.  Just as some of the others have said please come and join us.  I really do not believe I would have managed this far with out the help of all these lovely people and we have a giggle along the way x.

Judi, lots of ((((((((bug higs)))))))) for today.

As it has taken me a time to catch up on the reading this morning I just need to leave a quick post before work this morning to say hello to you all.  Take care everyone.  Ailsa xxx

Love and hugs for you today Judi. Put on the pink wellies and play witht he orangatangs (Well the image of that made ME smile anyway).  If you find today too hard just shuffle into the centre of the huddle. Long arms and sparkly rope are all out ready to hold you safe. x x x Be kind to yourself and have the best day you can.

Love and angel hugs x x x Patricia x x x

Judi - bug higs for you today

Sue xx

Best penguin frocks on today and hats of course, and raising a glass for Judi, a difficult day but some wonderful memories to hold onto.  xxxxxx

Judi, lots more hugs for you today.  Lesley, I also find my mind is missing much of the time, can't remember anything at all.  I think it is quite normal.  I have only been able to focus enough to read a book in the last few weeks, couldn't sit still long enough to watch the tv at all until just recently.  I can only imagine what I have managed to mess up at work.  But just be kind to yourself, it is frustrating but I hope will pass eventually.

Judi, lots of love and (((((((((HUGS)))))) for today.....
Quill xxxxxxxxxx

A little anecdote from my day at work which i hope might bring a smile to a few faces.

Jamie, who is 5, was a bit upset this morning as one of his fish had died.  After some gentle TLC and questioning, he reached into his bag and brought out a piece of paper on which was stuck, with sellotape, said fish.

it was labelled with 'fin','head' 'tail' etc, and around it were written various expressions of sympathy from mum and dad and sister referring to the demise of the fish.

then it was the turn of the other children to ask questions. we had the usual -  how old was the fish? what did it die of? where did you get it? etc etc

Then we had 'What is its name?'

'Lucky' came the reply.  at which point teacher ~(i e me!) collapsed in a heap of giggles which had to be expressed as a coughing fit!

sue xxx

Sue that made me laugh out loud which is quite an achievement as I have just been in tears with son xxx Poor Lucky lol!!

Judi thinking of you today xxxxx

I ve had a heart to heart with Liam, he wasn`t happy with me last night, told me I spend too much time on the internet.....my lifeline lol!!! Anyway we ve had a chat and decided to plan a `family` night maybe once a month but make the effort to go out for a meal or do something together. Its easier with me and Nat we ll go shopping or things together but if I suggest that to Liam he runs a mile, understandably lol!!

I tried to explain, in between tears oops!!, that if Paul was still here I wouldnt be having to make a new life or new friends but it is what it is and along with family and close friends you lot have helped me so much. He voiced his concerns about me meeting people off the internet which I can fully understand, can you imagine us if it was them off to Newcastle to meet strangers!!!! No way!!!!

Anyway I hope I have cleared the air with him, until the next time.

One last thing I realised yesterday do we all realise our gtg is Mothers Day weekend? Its ok with me, just wondered if anyone realised

Helen xxx