My husband - Chris - died on the 2nd May 2009 because he had anal cancer. He knew he was going and we spoke about lots and lots of things before he died. That is why I am just not prepared for the huge amount of guilt I feel now. I feel guilty that the world hasn't stopped turning round even though he has died. I feel like everything should stop as a mark of respect. I also feel very guilty that he had to be so ill he had to die. What a cruel cruel thing it is to make someone so ill their body just stops working. I wasn't ready for him to go. I really really hope these are normal feelings because I must hang on to my sanity for the sake of my 3 children. I have never known sadness like I feel right now. I can't believe that I will not hear his voice or feel his touch again. We were married for almost 32 years and I have known Chris for 34 years - since I was 16. What happens now? Ailsa
Lesley, I have believed in angels for a very long time. However, after my mum died, my sister went to a clairvoyant and she said she had a lady with her. Whgat she said ans described meant it could only be our mum. One of the things she said was that at the moment of death an angel had come and wrapped his/her wings about her and taken her off. She said many other things too which were relevant to us. I have also had other people who have told me things which convince me of the presence of angels. One friend who was having a tough time found a white feather in her bag every week for about 6 weeks. When the problem resolved, the feathers stopped appearing. There was no way that the feather could have been from a bierd as she was in her home each time it happened and has not bireds in the house. My sister found two white feathers in her home when my husband died and she believes it was a sign that mum and Ray and their angels were both around. I find it hard to justify my belief but I just know that I feel it to be so. I have been reading a book just lately too and that makes my belief even stronger. It is called 'Angels in My Hair' by Lorna Byrne. The onbly other explanation I can give is that I often 'feel' a presence but cannot explaoin it. Sometimes I find that a thought will come into my head for no apparent reason and I feel that someone needs my help. Perhaps I am just a nutter. lol
Take care dear Lesley and I hope that your arm soon feels better x x x
Sue, did you design that t-shirt yourself? I love it x x x
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this site has lots of penguin stuff x x x x I particularly like the love, peace and penguins logo x x x
Well described Patricia, knowing that there are angels takes a lot of faith - very similar to believing in God but I think a bit different, although I think if there are angels there must surely be a God too. I had heard that you will sometimes find a white feather when your guardian angel is with you and a few times I have found a white feather inunusual places and I know that twice there was no way that they could have come from anywhere "normal". I haven't read that book that you mention, but a friend of mine gave me a couple written by Dorreen Virtue and also some Angel Oracle cards which have been quite interesting to ask questions of.
Sue I loved the Missguided website, the penguin jumpers are beautiful, although I would love to be a leggy, slim youngster to wear one - my favourite is the pink one.
Hope everyone is ok and the weekend is going alright for you all. Did you get something done Patricia? xxxxx
Hi Everyone,
Lynne you are right about the music - it was rubbish ;-) Felt very rough today and now just shattered and a little tinge of green lol. Feel like I have wasted a day so will need to get up early tomorrow and get lots of housework and things done. Lying on the couch watching the Haiti concert and early night I think!
Hope everyone is well and coping as best they can.
Gayle xxx
Have you all heard of the "Purple Hat poem"? This is a part of it and what I am baseing an idea for a "Purple Hat" lunch around (see my Facebook photo's)
Beautiful Women's Month
Age 3: She looks in the mirrorf and sees a Queen.
Age 8: She looks in the mirror and sees Cinderella.
Age 15: She looks in the mirror and sees an Ugly Sister (Mum I can't go to school looking like this!)
Age 20: She looks in the mirror and sees "too fat/too thin, too short/too tall, too straight/too curly"- but decides she's going out anyway.
Age 30: She looks in the mirror and sees "too fat/too thin, too short/too tall, too straight/too curly" - but decides she doesn't have time to fix it, so she's going out anyway.
Age 40: She looks in the mirror and sees "clean" and goes out anyway.
Age 50: She looks in the mirror and sees "I am" and goes wherever she wants to go.
Age 60: She looks in the mirror and reminds herself of all the people who can't even see themselves in the mirror anymore. Goes out and conquers the world.
Age 70: She looks in the miror & sees wisdom, laughter and ability, goes out and enjoys life.
Age 80: Doesn't bother to look.
Just puts on a purple hat and goes out to have fun with the world.
Evening All, Well Judi i have had a wee laugh to myself about the post about the penguins at Edinburgh zoo i loved to see them when i was a wee girl (a long time ago) Dave glad your day went not too bad as we say sometime it's the lead up to all these dates etc that is worse. Sorry to hear about your bump with the car Gayle but as someone said it's only a car as long as you and the boys are fine that's all that really matteres. Hope everyone else ok, i am just at home tonight and not up to much been working today but not busy been wet all afternoon. Kim and me booked a clairvoyant today we go on the 15th Feb i am not sure what i make of it all but interested to see what she has to say to us, but when Kim phoned she said to her had she been close to someone who had a prolonged illness and they had, a lot of hospital appointments Kim didn't say too much to her and she just said she would see her on the 15th, Kim was a bit taken aback. Had Darren on phone still enjoying himself and moving on again, but very expensive and no jobs so doesn't think he will be there for a year if he can' find a job as money will not last for ever. Well i am off to make a coffee if anyone else would like one and i will also give you a chocolate biscuit. Fiona xxxxxxxx
Just a flying visit to leave love and (((hugs))) to you all.....
Dot xxxxxxxxxx
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