My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Wow, ho wchatty you have all been. Gayle (((((((hugs))))))) for you and your boys. How difficult it must be for you. I struggle dealing with my own emotions but to have to deal with small children and their questions.....  you have my deepest admiration.

Lesley, please don't be in too much of a rush to get rid of your 'pot'. Give yourself time to heal first.

Helen such a shame that the psychic never showed. Maybe it just wqsw not meat to be just yet.

Rosemary I have a great belief in angels but have never considered asking them to help me to find a parking space.  I may consider that in the future.

Janice, thinking of you for Wednesday x x x

Lynne, I hope your dad soon improves.

Everyone else, I hope that you are well and hope that the coming week is good to you.

Love and angel hugs x x x Patricia x x x

morning all

am off to hospital in afew mins. I know i shouldn't try to rush but wish it had been my left wrist instead of right, it is so frustrating not being able to even simple tasks. i miss writing in my journal to colin and that is making me feel sad. it is like after christmas i took a giant step forward and seemed to be coping so much better now i feel like i hsve gone further bach than i was before. stuck in again, no car, cant knit, cant write, cant even do my ironing,lol. i hope i get some movement in my wrist soon or i will be bored ridged. all this spare time gives me too much time to sit brooding, not good :-(

sorry about miserable post and cant do attitude, while i am at hosp' i will try to think of some things i can do! xx

hope everyone is ok xx

want to stamp and scream with frustration grrrrrrrrr. have just spent forever tyiping post for it to not appear ad,min error.

probaly just as well it did not post as itwas full of woe is me xx

maybe the angels are telling me off for being so negative, mudt try to think off things i can do instead of what i cant. really want to write to colin in my journal but cant write, sad sad sad :-(

hope everyone else is in better mood tham i am love you all xx

oh ha ha it did post after all  :- )  xx

That then was an angel saying that you ARE allowed to be fed up, totally fed up and let it all out. Lesley no wonder you feel like that, such a blow and so frustrating - be a little kind to yourself and stop beating yourself up hun.   Do you have an old tape recorder or anything that you could record some thoughts or journal entries, then when you have ten working fingers and thumbs you could catch up?

Love to all, must jump in the shower then off to work.

Judi xx

oh Lesley, you are not being negative so much as frustrated by your enforced resting peiod. It is ok to feel the way you do. Judi's suggestion is brilliant. Record your thoughts and transcribe them later. I hope that things do start to improve for you soon, but you know it is just a blip in your progression. We all have days when we feel we have slipped back and deeper into the hole of despair. We are all here for you even if you can't post. You are doing so well and Colin will be right there looking after you I am sure. Right then, it is your turn to go to the centre of the huddle and be cuddled and cossetted. No arguments, get right into the middle but protect your damaged arm. x x x

Love and angel hugs x x x Patricia x x x

it was not so bad at the hospital. have to have it on for 5 weeks, so no driving but the cast is smaller and lighter and blue! doc says i should start getting some movement back in a few days so might be able to return to work next week.

at least it will be gone for our meet up and i can still raise a glass with my left hand and it means i get an extra week of cuddles with daniel. see 3 things to be positive about!!!

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Lesley, that is a bit like the 'be glad' game. i.e. you are sad because you have a 'cast' on but you are glad because you get to spend more time with the baby. I  find it works really well for me but have not put it into practice for a while. Maybe I should.

I am so glad that the cast is now a lighter one. You will hopefully feel less restricted now. Enjoy the rest of your day.

Love and angel hugs x x x Patricia x x x

thanks patricia

ive just phoned my car insurance and the dvla, i can drive as soon as i feel ready and able to dont need to inform anyone as long as i dont need special adaptions to car in order to drive i am still insured, whoop, whoop!

Patricia, yes it is like the `glad` game. Lol. Was telling the girl at work about that once. She had never seen Pollyanna!!! Lesley, top of the class in the `glad` game at the moment hee hee!! But one prime example is us all meeting on here, I know it was under conditions none of us would want to meet but it is one thing to be glad about out of all this xxx

I ve just spent time on the phone to the building society re my mortgage statement. According to that there was money outstandin and I was led to believe it was all paid off last year. Well thankfully I got through to a lovely man who sorted it all out and there is nothing outstanding and he couldn`t apologise enough. Too late to go to the gym now though lol!! Also rang the fire brigade as the smoke alarms are beeping and driving me mad, not all the time but still annoying. Anyway Ladies I am going to be having some nice firemen coming round to help me!! Lucky me lol!!

Hope everyone has had an ok Monday

Love to all Helen xxx