My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

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My husband - Chris - died on the 2nd May 2009 because he had anal cancer. He knew he was going and we spoke about lots and lots of things before he died. That is why I am just not prepared for the huge amount of guilt I feel now. I feel guilty that the world hasn't stopped turning round even though he has died. I feel like everything should stop as a mark of respect. I also feel very guilty that he had to be so ill he had to die. What a cruel cruel thing it is to make someone so ill their body just stops working. I wasn't ready for him to go. I really really hope these are normal feelings because I must hang on to my sanity for the sake of my 3 children. I have never known sadness like I feel right now. I can't believe that I will not hear his voice or feel his touch again. We were married for almost 32 years and I have known Chris for 34 years - since I was 16. What happens now? Ailsa

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    Hello All

    just dropping in to say hi before we (hopefully) got of to disney in the morning... we've had quite a bit of snow here today so i really hope it doesn't get worse overnight. i'd hate to have to let H down again, poor kid's had so much to cope with, she really deserves this break...

    back on wednesday night so will be busy reading all your news and catching up!

    take care all,

    manda xx

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    oh manda,

    i so hope you manage to get away tomorrow - you and H both need the break.

    Enjoy, and stay safe.

    sue xx

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    Evening Everyone, Well another day nearly over, i have had a lazy day after taking my tree down. Not moved out of house today. Had Kim Grierson and Charlie in for awhile. We have no more snow but very cold and frosty again. Lynne glad you are feeling a bit better and you have had a nice birthday.

    Hope you get off to Disney Manda tomorrow and you both have a nice time, i would love to see it but maybe i will get when Charlie a bit older.  Hope everyone else doing ok, i think it's bedtime for me speak tomorrow. Hugs to you all.  Fiona xxxxxxx 

     

     

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    Hi guys

    Manda, fingers crossed for you and Hayley and Mickey. xxx 

    Lynne my little angel after an incredibly stressful, tearful, emotional, draining evening with step-daughter (back up from Edinburgh) I am absolutely shattered and came upstairs to turn the computer off before I fall in my bed and you ........ you .......... you made me laugh out loud at the idea of all you penguins walking to mine for an open house afternoon.  So thank you, thank you, thank you - I wouldn't have believed there was so much as a wee snigger in me tonight, let alone a laugh out loud chuckle.

    You guys are my tonic (yes, I'll provide the gin!)

    Night all - speak soon - love Judi xxxx

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    On our way, Judes xx

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    Fantastic Sue lets get on our way so glad It made Judi laugh xx , its flipping snowing again here , when is it going to get warmer xxxx

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    all togged up and waddling on my way to yours judi. Lynne, can we walk together please

    hope yuou get off ok manda

    love to you all

    x x x Patricia  x x x

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    With your sense of direction Patricia you'll need to walk with someone , i'll call for you on the way up xxxxx

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    Ah Lynne, I havea sat nav now so hopefully will reach my destination with less hassle x x x love and angel hugs x x x patricia x x x

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    Bring it with you then Patricia , Ha Ha Judi you think we are joking just you wait till you open your door to a long line of penguins , put the kettle on please xxxxx