My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Hi everyone

Very dull and cold day here too - heating on all day ... oops.

Helen, although today maybe a bit of a comedown I really hope you enjoyed last night.  Bet you couldn't do it two nights running though - I think I was in my 20s when two nights out last sounded like a good idea. 

Fiona - poor Kim - although a long, long time ago (in fact probably about a year after I was last able to go out two nights running without suffereing!)  I can remember that horrible feeling of just not being able to get comfortable.  Not  too long now though. 

Ailsa, I hope you have a wonderful outfit to describe and you had a good time with yoru sister.

Lynne, just you steel yourself to deal with those idiots this week.  We are all behind you and if they knew that they would run scared and get it sorted out double quick.

Loads of love to everyone else.  Judi xxx

hi all having problems with lap top dont worry if i dont post its driving me mad xxx

hi all having problems with lap top dont worry if i dont post its driving me mad xxx

see what i mean , hope your all ok xxxx

i'll try and post after i've phoned Halifax tommorow xxxx

Good evening everyone.  Hope everyone is okay.  Is the laptop any better yet Lynne?  You're right Helen - we do seem to be a bit quiet on her but it also sounds as though a few people are a bit down.  Here's hoping we all have a decent week.

I have had a lovely weekend with my sister.  We went dress shopping yesterday.  We both needed 2 new dresses as we need something for the hen night and something for the wedding.  We did it!  We both got a dress for a hen night in a salsa resturant and club and then we both found one for a wedding with a party theme.  It was lovely shopping with Fiona because we are both going to the occassions so we were excited about the shopping.  Now we can't wait to see each other properly dressed up for both dos.

Today I took Fiona to the cemetery and showed her where the bench is going and then we went for a walk in the autumn sunshine we have had today.  Then we called to see Chris's brother so that he could sign the forms for the headstone and kerb to be put in place next month.  Lovely weekend with lots achieved.

My son has finally decided that Chris's van really is too big to be practical.  He bought a small car yesterday instead - a citroen C2 GT - looks like a lovely car so I hope he enjoys it.  I can go ahead and sell Chris's van now so I am back to having the van & the PA system to get rid of.  I am hoping that if I sell the van and find a new home for the PA system and then sort out the headstone and bench I might feel a little more settled and like I am close to finishing my tick list.

I am sure once the bench is in place I will be sitting on it in all weathers just like you Lynne.  Good luck with the bank tomorrow.

I am glad you enjoyed the pub and tribute band last night Helen.  I am sure being a little fragile today was worth it.

The times you post look strange on some of your shifts Patricia.  You made me feel a bit better about my many tributes to Chris around the house and garden.  I get very conscious of them and wonder what people think.  But you are right - other people can like it or lump it.

How's the flooring going Sue?  Hope you are still making progress on the packing front Gayle.  Glad to hear you talking about travelling Judi.  My sister has kindly told me that there is always room for me on some of her & her husbands holidays when I am ready.  Hope Kim is getting plenty of rest Fiona.

Well I think I had better go to bed - hard work that shopping mylarky lol!!  Take care everyone.  Ailsa xxx

Hi Ailsa , it will only let me post short messages then they dissapear , very fustrating ,

Then it switches off , i think its sick , might need a new 1 , missing posting proper xxxx

Glad you had a good weekend Ailsa xxx

Fiona, hope you had a good visit with your sister. sorry Kim is not so confortable at the moment but hope that she is generally well. 

Helen, it is good to see that you are enjoying the occassional night out. Good for you.

Lynne I hope that you manage to get better results from the insurers this week.  Oh and good luck with the 'update' .

Ailsa it sounds like you had a good shopping trip and are hopefully now looking forward to the forthcoming wedding.  You mentioned the times that I post on here.  I don't usually post when at work as I am too busy but got a quiet moment the other night. I do however post at very strange times when at home because I keep very strange hours. I still use avoidance tactics when it comes to going to bed, so can often be found on here in the wee small hours.

I have had a very quiet weekend.  Saturday morning after I had finished work I went shopping and then went home to catch a couple of hours sleep. My son and his fiancee came for dinner and we spent a few pleasant hours together.  Sunday I went to the church service then dad came to visit.  In the afternoon I went to collect my mother-in-law and took her to visit both her remaining sons. We did a lot of driving around and 5 hours later I delivered her back home.

Well I hope that everyone who posts on here have had a good weekend and that tomorrow brings some joy to your lives.

Love and angel hugs x x Patricia x x