Strange day for me spoke to my original bereavement support yesterday and today and she confirmed my proper official grief counselling support will start next week sometime with someone else. It’s a shame as having met the original lady when my husband was in the hospice I felt comfortable talking and crying down the phone with here with her so I went for a walk and felt a little sad. (Silly i know ) God knows what they do when they are listening to us ???
I was lucky yesterday though to have had a aromatherapy session organised with the hospice for me a head massage shoulders face never having anything like this before felt very strange and especially as it would usually have been my husbands touch so it took me a while to relax into this without crying . I did feel relaxed for a bit. So can recommend this to anyone needing a bit of pampering?
Felt tired today and came to bed at 2pm for a couple of hours not ideal I know but really couldn’t be bothered to do anything else and tea was the same as yesterdays so nothing to prepare. I was kept awake last night with the young neighbour who likes to do gaming in the garage he calls out to other players however and I got so wound up I went and switched of the electric for a few seconds as I live in flat I have assess yes I know a. It naughty but I felt better for doing after. My husband would have yelled out and told him to shut up and keep the noise down .
Then I called EAP which is an 24 employee assistance program who help you personally so I thought I’d have a chat and no one will call me back till Monday!
Next tried the bereavement coffee evening I’m still debating about whether to go to or not but again no answer so this time I left a message. This will be my third time of calling I just want a friendly welcoming reassuring voice to answer and speak to me and tell me a bit about next weeks coffee evening
Next stop I’m in bed now will try to read a bit of my new book How to survive losing a loved one. !! (Coping with you partners terminal illness and death and building the next chapter in your life
I really don’t know yet how to that’s for sure……and I know I’m going to have to but I’ve said it before I was happy with what we had together and the thought of having to change is blimin daunting.
Do I speak to the EAP people as well
Do I attend the coffee evening I really don’t know what the hell to do or who to talk to.
Shall I just stick to the support organised for next week for me will it just all be too much ?
