My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Its always me that has to go to the bar Anyone else whilst i'm here ?

Thanks for the comments on the photos , do you think everyone on face book thinks i'm mad , oh well , they cant be far wrong , it keeps me busy .

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I think everyone is mad on facebook, it`s the law!!!!

Hi Ladies,

Having trouble keeping up! Disappear for a day and there are pages to read! Sorry you had a bit of a weepy night Helen after your meal out. I hate how one minute we are up and then next rock bottom. I went to a candle party last night which was okay until someone got a call on their mobile and I felt really low. Very silly I know but Wully used to phone me loads like all couples and I felt quite sad that I wouldn't be getting that "checking on you" call. Never mind bought some lovely candles though. Then my sis stayed with me. The car company phoned me back to say they want to take the car away. I was really upset at the time but I am trying to take the emotion out of it. If I wanted to keep it I would have to pay £2000 more than it is worth and I just have to keep remembering that is wasting money for the boys. So I went out car shopping today with my sister. I was quite excited at the time but as the day went on it got worse. The first salesman was typical salesman being very pushy and quite rude to be honest. Think he just thought I was a stupid female. The last one of the day was okay but the car was £500 over my budget so I decided to sleep on it. Don't know whether I can face another day of it tomorrow though! Never mind I have decided on the car I want so just need to find the right one at the right price.

Up early tomorrow for Jamie's football and probably car shopping so I will head off for an early night.

Take care and hope your Sunday's are okay.

Gayle xxx

Phew thank goodness for that xx

The tears are flowing now just because I grabbed that balloon Lynne and wrote a couple of words. What am I like? Had tears before at X factor too!! Oh well, better out than in!!!

Yes i was the same Helen , i think we torture ourselves really , i dont know what we'd do if we didn't have the internet . Its a life saver . Are you on your own tonight ?
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Gayle I`ve looked at a few cars but it is a bit scary!! Keep putting it off!! Good luck xxx

Lynne, daughter is in. Having a bath!! What about you? Have you still got Granddaughter? Yes , would be lost without the internet xxx

No i only had her till lunch time , the other 2 came this afternoon and after they gone thats when i went shopping and stuff , i've been on my own since then . I am fed up but i know all of the kids are coming tommorow , we're either having a bbq in the afternoon or i'm cooking lunch , depending on the weather . I'm also going to the music thing on monday so at least i've got something to look forward too , i just hate being on my own sat night ,We would either go out or make the effort to do something different on a sat , oh well i'd better get used to it .
xxx