Antidepressants

It sounds like you are existing on Auto-pilot. as I was like that for quite some /time. We go through the motions each day ,doing the necessary things , but there is no joy to be found in anything we are doing. Putting on the mask in Public. The Antidepressants do help with sleep a little ,but as this is not depression ,but griefs I don't feel they have the properties to lift the mood. I still find my standby Valerian helps me more , especially when it comes to calming my racing mind . I'll give the Antidepressants a little longer , but I don't want to stay on them for too long . Do you feel Traumatised by your experience ? Without wanting to sound like a drama Queen I found it traumatic especially with the horrendous problems we were having with the Neighbours from Hell as well as trying to cope with my Hubby's long term ill health. And without me saying that the Doctor used the same word . So I'm hoping the Therapist who he's referred me to will help with the EMDR . Perhaps it would help you too Spirit. I'm hoping to stop or at least lessen the constant Ruminating I'm having . Perhaps ask your Dr if you can be referred for it .  

I often found heart shaped stones on the shore of the Loch where I walked the dogs . And I would put them at the front of the house. I left them behind. I was in a daze the last few months and forgot to bring them. My Hubby wasn't able to walk the dogs with me. 

So am I. I really have a strong urge to hold him , and it leaves me aching for him . It's just horrible . And makes me so very sad . 

Hi Spirit, I've been on mirtazapine 15mg for almost 3 weeks now and they just seem to be kicking in a bit although they don't help me to sleep they are just taking the edge off my depression and lifting my mood a bit. Friends have noticed I don't seem so down and edgy. I'm back to GP this week for a review appointment. The main side effect I seem to have with them is feeling quite groggy in the mornings, have to force myself to get out of bed, it feels like I'm hungover!! I'm going to see if there's an alternative available as I don't like how I feel in the mornings.  I hope this helps you and of course everyone is different. I will keep you posted 

Thanks Elsa, that really helps. I picked up the prescription today but wasn't sure whether to take them, but I think I'm going to give them a try. Nothing to lose I guess. It would be nice if they helped make those bad days even a tiny bit more bearable. You're lucky to get to see a GP, it's all done over the phone here! Thanks again for your help. 

You are very welcome Spirit. I hope they help a little.  I had to really fight for that GP appointment BTW!! They are not strong, just take the edge off. Keep me posted. 

Im sorry you had that experience with your GP. Sometimes people don’t understand how impactful their mindless comments can be!

Mirtazapine is good to help with sleep (better at 30mg dose) because of its sedating side effects. Hopefully you were advised to take it at night. One of the down sides is that it can increase appetite and cause weight gain. I work in mental health for many years and have seen mirtazapine used for anyone struggling with sleep and poor appetite really well. 

Our grief is our own and will take as long as it takes for us to be able to feel like we are learning to deal with the reality of our loss.
Be kind to yourself xx