Ranty rant rant!

It's all in the name!

More of a cake, I think. I just got back from visiting my darling. The tropical plant is thriving. I cleared any flint stones, and pebbles. I like to chat to my husband, whilst tending the grave, and give him updates. I talked to him about my thoughts on the type of headstone he would like. The wording is going take longer to figure out. I will be there ultimately, so I need to take this into account.. It gives me a lot of comfort to visit. It is situated on The South Downs, the environment and view are stunning. Only ten minutes away. Lots of tears, but smiles, too. Kate. Xxx 

Well if you’re talking classic Jaffa -yummy biscuit. 
If your talking one of the fancy pants new flavours - yucky cake

I got some hot honey ones on Tuesday, they were cheap, I know why now. Different. 

• Hot honey? That sounds weird. I have some cherry Bakewell ones, they're not bad

I do love a Cherry Bakewell.Kate. Xxx

Sorry I know this is an old subject, I need to rant.

So this last couple of weeks I have tried to be more postive yet.

I have been told god doesn't think I'm good enough yet to be with Sue ? What does that mean ?

Been asked by someone on my street if I am better now ? I didn't know I was ill, I've lost my soul mate. 

Then I got a WhatsApp from a friend? I have not spoken to in a while,the last time was awkward. Hi sorry I haven't been in touch, I'm in Ibiza at the moment on our second holiday this year ? I don't begrudge people having holidays and fun, but what a crap thing to send me.

Then yesterday, I did my weekly food shop,got out side M&S and my wedding ring had fallen off. So I ran back in tears flowing and in total panic.  Emptied my bag no not there, so I went around looking for it. The looks you can imagine.  A bloke crying looking for  a wedding ring,nobody came near me. I managed to find it on the floor.  I will have to get it resized, with my weight loss. I just felt like I had lost another part of Sue.

So glad you found your ring. With my husbands weight loss he lost it in the recycling bin panicking hadn’t told me but he found it fortunately too - it kept fall off so in the end he kept it off. The day after he died I found a local jewellers who made it fit  me on the same day and I’ve worn it ever since. I took it off though for my paddle boarding adventure just in case! 

An old friend did that to me sent me tons of photos of their exotic holiday very shortly after I couldn’t believe it! 

My positive thing to do today is to try to book a few days away in oct as I’m off and I stupidly mentioned to my parents who haven’t forgotten that I said I may do something and I may take them for a couple of days with me…Why did I do that??

There are some very odd people out there, not the full ticket. For some reason, they think they can spout any rubbish that comes out of their mouths. What they don’t realise is that it is bloody hurtful and ignorant. The holiday “friend”, sounds like a real charmer. Again, completely insensitive. I think that I mentioned before, that I did a “Clearout”, of certain people. I would rather sit on my own, or start from scratch with friendships than put up with that rubbish. You can’t cover every situation, but it has helped me. I am so, so pleased you managed to find your wedding ring, that must have been incredibly upsetting. I wear both of our wedding rings. It is difficult because I don’t want to get it resized, but I may need to. Sending hugs, Kate. Xxx