Just having a moment

Aww Bless You Mrs VT!

Yes you will get these days all part and parcel of the grieving process unfortunately but just know you are not alone and I'm sure we've all had them here. Just keep coming here when you need to we all will `get it`. Lovely you got a nice big hug from your friend. Take Care

Vicky xx

Hi irq74

Yes I can resonate with the `meals for one`. Jay my husband was a great cook it was one of his passions and he would cook for an army even though it was only the two of us after our son moved out. He would make huge platefuls of food and if you left any he sometimes got quite offended and thought you didn't like it but I constantly tried to tell him it was the quantities  he made and he made far too much. I think he thought everyone ate like him. My waistline certainly took a battering from his dinners because they were just so delicious and that's one thing at least my waistline is now feeling the benefit of smaller meals and I can fit into clothes again I've had lying in my wardrobe that I couldn't over the past few years. Used to `scoff` at these ready meals but some are quite good and are just enough for me. I still cook for myself on occasions but not to the extent Jay did. Best Wishes.

Vicky 

I received some boxes from my beautiful Valen’s workplace and my best friend came round today to go through them with me.

Things like gym clothes, chargers, spare set of clothes “just in case it’s heaving down when I get off the tube and need to change”. Ever the sensible one!

In amongst it all was his winning trophy for his company’s Great Cook Off 2019. 
He won with a curry recipe. 
He was a truly amazing cook. 
The only time I had to cook was when he was away overnight once a week. 
But even then it was just reheating something he had already made.

He had even prepared soup the day before he was ripped from me so we wouldn’t have to cook when we got home from his 1st treatment that he never got.

That trophy now has pride of place on the mantle piece and is mak8ng me smile right now thinking of it.

Oh, and the Flash mop I threw across the room in frustration at it not working?
The batteries need changing

And he would be horrified to know that I have just polished off a bag of wine gums as my supper!

What is it about wine gums ? I have them too. Yesterday, I ate a whole bag in one go. Xxx

Hi, glad you found happiness from the trophy and nothing wrong with wine gums, I was going through his iPad looking at photos he had on it and came across a video of his beloved garage that he spent a lot of time in. I opened it the other day and honestly what a mess, but he had slowly videoed it after he tidied it showing where everything was, I actually found what I was looking for and it was so neat and tidy. Today I’m going to venture in it and clean up the saw dust, throw  all the old jumpers that are lying about and put it back to the way the video showed. Why would he do that? He loved his garage, I’m going to have to try and sell all these expensive tools when I get it tidied up, I have no idea what half of them are. That will keep me busy today. Sending hugs, heres hoping today is a good day for all of us xx

It’s Jaffa cakes with me, I can eat the whole box after not eating much for my dinner. Xx

Oh homemade soup! That was another of Jay's specialities. This is the time of year he would make big pots of homemade soup he would actually buy a full chicken and break it all up and put it in with the vegetables broth mix and whatever else he put in. Used make a big pot and then freeze some so we could have some another night and it was so thick you could dance on it. It was a dinner itself.

The soup maker is the one thing I cant put away in the cupboard. 
I’ve got a lovely video from before he became really really unwell of him explaining how he makes his soups for me to follow. 
When I said I’d buy some tins of soup his look of horror makes me smile now!

As my mum lives 10 minutes walk from me I’ll start making some batches up for us these dark winter nights.

Ive had a lovely day with my mum. 
My sister came round later and we have spent the afternoon playing scrabble. 
I could (and so could they) picture my beautiful Valen sitting on the sofa on his laptop and every once in a while getting up to make us tea and ask whose winning.

Today has been an alright day.

Hugs to all who need one right now xx

Hi, can I take two hugs I’ve had a horrific day xx