Just having a moment

Hi Sad1 welcome to the forum and I so very sorry to hear of your husbands death. I am particularly sad to hear how sad that you are feeling bit it maybe isn't too surprising. It's OK to have sad days and days where you cry and that's OK.. I don't know what to say except to send you some huge big hugs and let you know I'm thinking of you. Xxxx

Hi Sad1, is this our new normal now?  I actually had a visitor today, they brought me some kindling for my fire which was very thoughtful, it took me three goes to get their tea correct, 5 tea bags later I finally done it. My milk was off as well, I only have lacto free milk but I need to stop buying the normal milk as this is the second bottle to go down the drain.i just can’t get used to this, I forced myself to go to this wee group in the church, I just wished it was over, I’m not ready for this. Then someone I didn’t know came up and said how sorry she was to hear of my husbands sudden death. I held it together which I was proud of. The person that invited me to it was lovely and everyone was so friendly but now that I’m back home I’m so sad again, no one to talk to, I miss him so much, my hair is getting very thin, I’ve found myself pulling it out and I really have to stop this as I don’t have thick hair. Maybe a nervy thing. I have a hospital appointment tomorrow and I just hope my consultant doesn’t ask me how my husband is, that could be very bad for me if she does. Also hope my bloods are ok, I had cancer a few years ago, could not cope if anything was wrong. One step at a time, the least wee thing that goes wrong upsets me atm.i keep getting these letters from Social Security asking me to phone them or they will close his benefit. No idea what benefit they are talking about, I don’t get any benefits. I hate opening Mail just now, it’s always bad news. Take care, you are not alone and hopefully we will get through this horrible time in our lives xx