The pain is not going away

I’m so sorry you feel so bereft after the death of your dad. I cannot contemplate losing my dad although it is now inevitable, sadly. Big hugs is all I can give. But you’re not alone. xx

I’m so sorry to you too..thank you and I’m sending a big hug back to you xxx

I'm with you for all of this. I lost my dad is March, nothing is the same. When I'm alone I cry, but since coming on here, two Fridays ago, if i feel that feeling coming over me, i come straight to this platform. It really does help me, I come on here daily, just to read and times reply, really just how I'm feeling. Please don't feel alone, we all came on here for some reason of another and we are here for each other. 

I hope one day we both can look back and laugh, instead of seeing the sad. I still hear his breathing (when it changes), its starting to fading, I now can walk in his bedroom and not hear beeping, etc... My dad died at home. 

If you ever need anyone, I here, we are all here for you. X

Hi, ah that is such a lovely reply… thank you. It’s comforting and I mean this in the nicest possible way that I’m not the only only going through this nightmare. I feel for you. It’s the hardest thing I have experienced. The journey was horrendous. 

I really hope you’re right and there is moment now I can hear his belly full laughing.. and I can smile. I hope the horrible memories do fade and I can see my once strong dad again in memory. I’m guessing they wouldn’t want to see us so upset, he would be having a word with me if he could. 

know your not alone too and I hope I’m time we can both look back with a different view of them. I’m sending you love and comfort. Xxxx

My dad would definitely be giving me words. He was the person I went to for anything, he always knew what to say and gave the best advice. I came across a voicemail from him, just saying Hi ..., talk to you later, don't worry. Love you .... I recorded it to my phone and can sit and listen to it over and over again. 

When the time was near, I was chatting away to him, saying I loved him, etc... and my sister came in to the room and said love you dad. I was like daddy we love you, come on say you love me / us. My dad with a smile said, I love me, we giggled and said no daddy say I love .... and .... he then replied with I Love me. If only you know my daddy. He was a funny man, making us both giggle. That was I last thing I heard my dad say to me and he heard his babies laugh. 

Miss him everyday day, some days it's really bad, others he is in my thoughts. I hate the days I'm missing him so much, it hurts. 

Always here, thanks for your reply. X

Ah bless him and bless you. He’s sounds like a fabulous man!  Sending you so much love ️ 

I lost my dad in April too and like you I am still haunted by the horrific memories and his final few months with us. I just wanted to let you know that your not alone in this and I'm glad you shared your story. Hope things get lighter for all of us.

Hi, ah thank you for taking the time to reply. It’s the hardest thing I have ever gone through and witnessing what I saw was horrific. I’m sorry you went through this too.. I’m sorry for your loss. I can only hop in time we can remember them how they was before this cruel disease took hold.. sending you a hug  

Thank you so much for writing this. I just lost my husband 3 weeks ago on the 23rd June we have his funeral this Friday so everything for me at the moment is very raw. Like your dad my husband was the same age 69 so won't get to see his 70th birthday which will be February next year or see our little granddaughter go to school which he so wanted to see or our son get married in 18 months time. These are all milestones he is going to miss which he so wanted to see. and that really hurts. 

69 is so young isn’t it..I think that’s what makes it feel worse.. they had so much to live for.. his birthday where he should have been 70 was so hard.. we had plans together. I’m so sorry for your loss life is so so cruel. Massive hug from me and thinking of you x