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Only three sleeps now till surgery. Very anxious right now. Am at work trying to do work but just cant concentrate.Just got to get through one day at a time.....
Seriously the emotions I have been through in the last few weeks!
It is exhausting.
Cant find the words just finding this week tough.
On friday mummy went to sign up for a trial that her new oncologist suggested. He sounds like a very encouraging doctor and I have noticed a more positive attitude in her since she started treatment with him. In there first meeting he did not give a prognosis like the other oncologist and really stressed how different every patients case was; he even cited an example of one of his patients living for ten years after an incurable diagnosis.
I am really happy that she has decided to do the trial and...
Ron's son and family have visited for a few days. One of the disadvantages of living so far away is that they have to fly. Fortunately they can get from Liverpool to Limoges which is only an hour away. Tim seems to get bigger every time we see him. At 6' 8" he towers over his father who is a mere 6' 2". As Ron has lost weight and his hair has thinned as a result of the chemo he seems smaller and older. They share a love of trains , large and model, so it was a treat to see them working together on...
hey guys not having a great day today missing mammy like mad all i want to do is ring her and hear her voice i really cant see this getting any better or easier. i have a really bad flu and all i want is some of mams soup, i think dad is feeling it this week as well as he is very quiet in himself. life really tests us and im struggling to find a way of coping, haven gone back to work cause i really cant face it yet but still i realise i will have to soon. xx sarah xx
Having a rocky time at the moment, Clive seems to have increasing levels of Calcium in his blood which they are keeping an eye on, and is very short of breath all the time. He has a small pleural effusion which they are trying to treat with antibiotics or steriods. all this is a worry. I have looked it up and it all seems quite common in advanced cancer, i didn't say anything to Clive, but he has now looked himself and realises time is running out. I do feel quite emotional at the moment.
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I have just finished 4th cycle of chemo and it was at first not too bad but i never want it again!! it got worse each cycle !! i had cisplatin and doxecatol !!! i really dont think i could do it again i am to have 2 weeks radiotherapy soon had ct scan today see oncologist next monday so fingers crossed !!!!!got really bad palmar plantar rash on hands on feet it is awful it is so itchy when i go to bed im keeping my husband awake !!! itching the soles of my feet!"! Moan over !!!!
Why is it , that people seem to think that it can never happen to them, the love of their life will never die.
I was also asked ;why are you still wearing your wedding ring? and isn't it about time you started going on a dating website ?
My Roger is the love of my life , or should i say was, he only died in November 2009, nearly 3 months ago, he was so brave , we were married for nearly 39 years, we had so many plans for our retirement, we did everything together, we never went out without kissing...
I went back to work today after 2 months off, the time has gone so fast.
To ease me back in, I am doing reduced hours for a few weeks.
Before I went in, it was a bit like going to secondary school for the first time, when I got there it was OK.
Peter
I have been taken sleeping pills (Zopiclone, Imovane) on and off for 6 years now with no problems, but just lately i find that i have to take more each night due to anxiety and even in the day now to calm myself down.
But my biggest worry is for the last few weeks i wake up virtually on every hour every night all through the night, ie 2am, 3am, 4am, then i finally go off till usually 7am but when i awake i have this immense feeling of fear it is so intense i sit up in bed clutching my duvet crying...
