Having a rocky time at the moment, Clive seems to have increasing levels of Calcium in his blood which they are keeping an eye on, and is very short of breath all the time. He has a small pleural effusion which they are trying to treat with antibiotics or steriods. all this is a worry. I have looked it up and it all seems quite common in advanced cancer, i didn't say anything to Clive, but he has now looked himself and realises time is running out. I do feel quite emotional at the moment.
We have been to see the most fantastic Palliative care consultant at Derby , she is so caring and thorough and looking after us both, she is so on the ball with pain relief and symptom control. I have packed in work as it was causing difficulty as I worked over lunch time and had to provide my own cover if I couldn't make it ,which as we have more hospital visits it gave extra stress I didn't need. So I am relieved to be officially retired at 42!
My brave face is still in place, am trying to be strong for the kids, am not sure if we should be filling them in a bit more on proceedings. i will see the Macmillain nurse soon for some advice.
