Stop this ride....I want to get off !!!

  • Back home and feeling good.

    Thursday 20h January 2017

    Well I'm home after ten days away at my daughters, I am missing my grandson so, so much but I feel very happy that he's settled and my daughter is coping really well and enjoying being a mum. She needed me there at that time and I got there, even with all this madness going on I was there and I enjoyed every single second. 

    We did normal things, we went shopping with the baby…

  • I meet my grandson at last.

    Thursday 12th January,

    The last chemo session on Tuesday went well, my consultant no2 popped in and said hello while I was plugged in and said that she'd received the information from the hospital and consultant no1 where I go for scans and plans and that she was extremely pleased with the results, and that the shrinkage results justifies pumping the chemotherapy into me. I couldn't agree more, but am a little more…

  • From a high to a low :(

    Monday 9th January 2017

    Well after the euphoria of yesterday, today I came crashing down, to be fair I knew that nothing could match yesterday, but I didn't realise how fragile my emotions are.

    I got up feeling positive, took my temperature, that's always an stress, but it was fine. I phoned my daughter to see how she and the baby were and then the district nurse to check I was on the list for the blood…

  • What a difference a day makes.

    Sunday 8th January,

    Today I became a nana, what a day! Everything people said is true, I have fallen in love with this little boy and I haven't even met him yet. I have had photos, videos, FaceTime phone calls on and off all day, at first it was hard seeing him and not being able to touch him or smell him, but after a while I just couldn't get enough. 

    I was so worried because when I had my daughters I had…

  • The rollercoaster continues.

    Saturday 7th January.

    I am sitting in bed writing this blog, absolutely shattered, I only got two hours sleep last night as my husband and his friend got back from their 'couple of drinks' last night, or should I say this morning at 1am. I was so pleased he went out as he's been amazing lately, and really deserved a night out, but I sat up waiting to see if they needed me to collect them as we live a little way from…