sammieo's blog

well after last weeks shocker i went for an appointment at my local hospital to discuss radiotherapy. i don't think i told you all too much about my last marsden appointment . whilst i was on holiday i was called by the hospital to say that surgury was 1st option and go ahead to meet with the surgeon's the following tuesday , the appointment did'nt go too well to say the least. i would honestly say my dog would have got…

well just to update you on my last blog . came back from my holidays last week and i had a fab time really really loved it. had a message on last Tuesday whilst on holiday left on my boyfriends phone saying ' this is professor Gauls assistant just to let you know we had an mgm with the surgeons and have agreed that surgury would be a good first option . we shall see u as planned in the clinic on tuesday ' . up to today…

just to warn you that this isn't a joke if your looking for laughs look away. but its not all doom and gloom either . i had a really good appointment at the marsden , far far better than i had hoped for .my ct and pet scans both show that the tumour is localised ..phew! professor gore was very positive , he doesn't think chemo is a good first option this time as it didn't work before ..and if it gets any bigger and spreads…

after the comment that was made to me on the jokes blog today , i feel its my time to bow out . i shall not be writting on what now anymore ..for the fear of upsetting anyone that doesn't want to read about cancer and the feelings it causes. normally i write my blogs late at night when i can't sleep and these fears haunt me so i write it down and the in last few weeks as in the past year i have been given immense support…

i've lots of things running through my head at he moment . i'm really worried about my appointment at the marsden on friday , i guess upto now its just been scans and on friday i will be hearing the full and frank truth and i'm not sure i'm ready to hear it , well i know i'm not. what if i'm told its inoperable does that mean its terminal? , if it is terminal how will i deal with that . does secondaries mean it is terminal…