I couldn't sleep at all last night, ended up sitting in the lounge at 4.30am, all those things going round and round in your head that even during daylight you can't sort them.
So after getting the kids off to schools, I thought I would try and get some kip. It is not be - the phone goes, the first time it is a friend asking how things are. So I end the calll and try again - my spine was so painful I could not…
Well hubby decided to call the hospital first thing this morning - I can feel the dread as he picks up the phone, my stomach starts to churn. He gets a temp receptionist who is not allowed to give results, so she will get someone to call us back. I try to carry on our conversation as normal but my mind is racing, my heart has gone into terror mode, not sure how I haven't had a heart attack as yet, so many times we have…
Just sometimes I would like to feel like we were actually getting somewhere. It's not alot to ask is it? We have always been honest people, never broke the law, we respect others and try to help people when we can, we think we are what they call 'good citizens'. So why when you do no wrong can you still be punished by things.
Hubby was the 'victim' of medical negligence, not once, not twice, not three times…
Well it turned out to be a long one today, woke up feeling totally exhausted and really did not want to wake up. Left hubby in bed as long as I could but eventually we had to go to the dreaded hospital. So along the first motorway and all was Ok, then the second motorway turned into a carpark - road works, just our luck, so eventually we got onto the third motorway and I suddenly realised that hubby was silent but as…
I am sitting up late at night unable to let my mind rest because again we have to go to the cancer hospital, again to find out if its back in remission, so I am terrified again. It does not get any easier with time or occurences, I know what will be discussed, I know that we will come away still filled with fear one way or the other. I have to stay strong for hubby, I have to make him believe that what he has been through…
