Right apart from a stinking cold I am back to my old self again, feeling a bit more positive, thanks for all who have made me feel better with their advice. So I start radiotherapy next thursday and in theory I should be still on a treatment break but feeling quite rough with this cold which isn't like me, but then I'm not me anymore I am the new cancer me.
Well I will still try to shake this off and go out…
Just got back from the hospital with not good news, my pelvic tumour has more than doubled in size to 8cm in 6 weeks and is what is causing my bladder not to work, my lung mets have grown but not as drastically. I am now booked in to start 4 weeks of radiotherapy every day at London on the pelvic growth, after that i will be going on Votrient (pazopanib) a new drug.
Trying to stay positive but man it is hard, i feel…
Had a bit of a wobble today, panicking about my consultation tomorrow. Just can't help thinking it is going to be bad news. For the most part I am pretty good at putting it out of my mind and getting on with it, life that is, but had some panic attacks and a very heavy chest all day. The thing is that since my Consultant told me the news that my cancer is incurable she is the monster in my nightmares and therefore…
Well my bladder problem aside I am feeling pretty goooooood at the moment so am looking forward to Easter, which is funny because there was a time I didn't think I would get to see the London Olympics! :)
Now I have a scan on the 2nd and consultation and preliminary results on the 5th April so everything crossed for that, but in the meantime life goes on.
Am hoping to go for a couple of meals over Easter and visit…
Well here I am living with incurable cancer this is so surreal yet so real! I only had the panic attacks and total fear for about two weeks after being told, I suppose you could say I was lucky in that respect. I woke up one morning two weeks after being told and the panic had gone, I was at peace, don't know how it happened but it did. I was now on a mission to fight this disease and to live my life like I should…
