Well here I am living with incurable cancer this is so surreal yet so real! I only had the panic attacks and total fear for about two weeks after being told, I suppose you could say I was lucky in that respect. I woke up one morning two weeks after being told and the panic had gone, I was at peace, don't know how it happened but it did. I was now on a mission to fight this disease and to live my life like I should have been living it for that last 50 years!
I have researched how I can help myself, I know some say that you shouldn't but I like to feel that I have some involvment in what happens to my body (and spirit) whist going through this. I don't eat sugar, I eat mostly veg and fruit. I take supplements - vitamins, friendly bacteria, EQ10, mushroom extract and superfood powder. I have read a really good book called Anticancer written by a doctor wich really lifted me and made me feel like I could DO something and made sense. Quackery I can hear some of you shout, maybe, maybe not, its not going to harm me so why not?
I have met some of the nicest people since being involved in the cancer "world" most of them fellow patients, I wish these people could be my friends under different circumstances but then I was a different person before this, I thought that work and money were the answers to my dreams now my dream is to just live.
I don't really know what the format is for these blogs but here is a bit of background, I live in Essex with my partner, she is devastated yet so supportive, and my dog (see avatar). I am 50 years young and work for a contractor to the MOD. I was in the army for a while in my youth but have worked in my present job for over 30 years. Anyway that's about it for now.
Love Jayne xx
