sorry ,but im feeling very low and hopefully getting it out will help,
This time last year we were all so happy ,school hols had started ,we had 2 weeks off together ,for fun and family , i was also preparing lots of suprises for ju,s 40 th birthday on 3rd august ,water skiing ,meals out ,lots of fun and quality time ,
Then his symptoms started ,so we knew he wasnt well, anyway various appts followed ,but me being…
Well huge week for my 13 year old daughter this week , last week at school before going up to secondary school , and on thursday she has her school prom , but i can tell shes really missing her dad , and is very quiet about the prom as hes not here , she has a beautiful dress ,jewellery ( yes i did spoil her i wanted it to be special )and shoes , and will look amazing , but i wish she believed as i do that he will see…
Well ive not been right for a few days ,very tearful ,up and down like a yo yo, i even cried myself to sleep one night ,and i havent done that since ju first died ,
I hate being like this as im such a happy positive person ,even though i know its "normal" lol me normal ! but i now realise why ive been so unsettled ,
Well another nightmare shift today, my legs is still painful and swollen so i was struggling…
Well im cross (again ) !!!
We all went to my mums today for a family bbq ,which dont get me wrong was lovely ,missed ju alot as first time ive been their since ,i have been avoiding it if im honest but i did it !
well anyway my brother walked in and first thing i noticed was his sunburn ,its the worst case of sunburn ive ever seen !! so i zipped it ,and said hello and spent some time with my gorgeous neices , until…
To some of you especially the men, this will seem a really daft blog but plz forgive me as i do feel it may help someone , i know as i was their a few months ago, after i lost ju apart from the emotional pain, i was lost with all the practical stuff ,im a typical woman ,which is why i have blonde and pink highlights as ju always said i should be blonde :) coz im daft as a brush ,,, but at least im honest !!!
So my first…
